Rose of Heaven

189-190

After Cheng Yaosi carried Lin Jingmo to the car, he asked the driver to raise the partition, and then began to check the invisible parts of her body without saying a word.
    When he took off her coat, Lin Jingmo held him down and whispered, "I'm fine."
    Cheng Yaosi pursed his lips and stared at her, his eyes burning as if he wanted to see into her heart.
    The scene of Lin Jingmo pointing a gun at herself replayed in his mind over and over again, like a broken horror movie tape.
    He didn't understand why Lin Jingmo did that. The first thing he could think of was that she had suffered inhuman torture at the hands of Chen  Xingchen, so after killing Chen  Xingchen, her psychological defenses collapsed and she couldn't live in pain.
    "I'm really fine." Lin Jingmo repeated it again.
    She fired those three shots decisively and confusedly. She told Chen  Xingchen her name, the name that should have died with her parents ten years ago.
    The pain and resentment of the past ten years were wiped out in an instant.
    Seeing the gun in her hand, she felt that it seemed like it was time for her to leave.
    It was just a momentary feeling. After being interrupted by Cheng Yaosi, the feeling of being extremely tired and wanting to sleep forever slowly dissipated.
    "I want to sleep for a while. Can you hold me?"
    She said, and snuggled into Cheng Yaosi's arms. Cheng Yaosi helped her adjust her posture so that she could lie more comfortably.
    Lin Jingmo fell asleep quickly, and slept for nearly ten hours.
    During this time, Ye Nannan had also found . The first thing she said when she saw Ye Zhongxu was to ask him what his relationship with Lin Jingmo was.
    Ye Zhongxu remained silent. Ye Nannan was devastated. The father she respected so much was actually with a girl who was only one year older than her daughter. This made his image in her heart collapse. Ye Nannan had been
    chasing stars for several years. What she was most proud of was that she would run away in advance before each idol collapsed, as if she had telepathy. For this reason, her big account was also said to be a beacon in the industry. Unexpectedly, the most ruthless blow was given by her own father.
    Ye Nannan's sadness can be imagined.
    As for Lin Jingmo's shooting, it was treated as a self-defense shooting by the hostages in the chaos at the scene. Anyway, no one saw the real situation at that time. Ye Zhongxu was the highest commander of the operation, and he would not pursue the truth. The report was quickly submitted for review, and the case was closed.
    In the hospital, Tang Tianyu initially thought that Lin Jingmo could not come because of something. It was not until the next day that he learned that she was kidnapped and wanted to go out. The doctor gave him a sedative and asked him to lie in bed for two days.
    ...
    Lin Jingmo woke up in the middle of the night at Cheng Yaosi's house.
    She opened her eyes and met the gaze from the side of her body. Lin Jingmo was stunned, because Cheng Yaosi seemed to have not slept all the time and just looked at her.
    She reached out and covered Cheng Yaosi's eyelids and asked, "Aren't you tired?"
    He said, "I'm sorry."
    Lin Jingmo didn't understand, and Cheng Yaosi pulled her hand down and put it to his lips. "In fact, the two dangers you have been in were all my negligence." As
    he said, he was about to kiss Lin Jingmo's fingers.
    His breath spread on Lin Jingmo's fingertips, the warm temperature, her heart trembled, shivered, and wanted to take it back.
    Cheng Yaosi had been thinking about the time when Lin Jingmo almost committed suicide. That scene still popped into his mind from time to time to scare him. No matter what Lin Jingmo did, he obeyed. She gently pulled and let go.
    Lin Jingmo didn't know why. Logically, they had been intimate for more than one or two times. Perhaps without any grudges, he could think about more things. Now that he was doing such an intimate act, Lin Jingmo felt an indescribable shyness.
    "It has nothing to do with you. Others have intentions. It's useless for you to be on guard. And I was careless myself, so I won't blame you."
    After Lin Jingmo finished speaking, she saw Cheng Yaosi looking at her strangely and couldn't help asking, "What's wrong?"
    Cheng Yaosi smiled and answered the question irrelevantly, "Are you hungry? Get up and eat something."
    Lin Jingmo hadn't eaten well in the past few days and was very hungry. Cheng Yaosi pulled her up and took her to wash up.
    Lin Jingmo brushed her teeth first, which was fine. But when it came to washing her face, she had a problem because she couldn't use one arm.
    Cheng Yaosi leaned against the door and saw that she was struggling to get water with one hand. He walked over and took a face towel: "I'm standing here, don't you know to please?"
    He hugged Lin Jingmo and sat her on the sink. The two of them were very close. He flushed the water with the face towel. The water was rushing, and Lin Jingmo's face was slightly hot. In her opinion, this behavior was more affectionate than kissing and hugging. She wanted to refuse, but her hands were really inconvenient. Cheng Yaosi was willing to do it, so she let him do it.
    So, Lin Jingmo closed her eyes and let him wash her face with a warm and wet face towel, and then applied facial cleanser foam on her face.
    It was the first time that Cheng Yaosi did this. Although he tried to be as careful as possible, he still got it into Lin Jingmo's eyes. Fortunately, the facial cleanser he used was mild, and Lin Jingmo didn't feel irritated or uncomfortable, but the sour feeling for a moment made her cry softly and turn her face away. Cheng Yaosi apologized with a loud laugh and came up to help her wipe her eyes. Lin Jingmo wiped the foam on her face and touched it to Cheng Yaosi's nose.
    That light foam seemed to touch his heart, and it moved. He leaned over, arched his back and kissed her.
    Lin Jingmo screamed and dodged, "Cheng Yaosi!"
    Who would kiss at this time!
    He kissed her regardless, and his mouth was full of the taste of fragrance and chemical additives, but he was happy to do it. His heart flew to the clouds with the foam. He looked at her helplessly, unable to hide and could only shiver and arch into his arms. She hadn't been so happy for a long time, even though it seemed that there was nothing worth him being happy about.
    In the end, Lin Jingmo couldn't match his strength, and he held her face and kissed her lips, making two loud popping sounds like a prank.
    She saw Cheng Yaosi's face full of foam, his eyebrows and eyes sparkling, wanton and indulgent. In a trance, Lin Jingmo seemed to see his appearance as a teenager.
    But Cheng Yaosi would never smile like that at that time. He always had a stern face. When Lin Jingmo occasionally turned her head to look behind her to find someone, her peripheral vision caught sight of Cheng Yaosi. He had the same expression that never changed, pursing his lips, looking up at her with cold eyes, as if he was very dissatisfied with her.
    Sometimes during physical education class, several girls gathered together to chat. They talked about the boys in the class. Several of them agreed that Cheng Yaosi was the most handsome, even more handsome than Cao Huanju, the most famous boy in the previous class. Lin Jingmo was the only one who refuted it.
    "Tsk - Gu Ci'en just likes the type of Cao Huanju who looks gentle. The aesthetic taste of middle-aged and elderly people is different from that of us girls!"
    Lin Jingmo hit her: "What? You are obviously asking for trouble, a bunch of masochists!"
    "Ah, but I really want to be tortured by Cheng Yaosi - Gu Ci'en, don't be a full man and don't know the hunger of a hungry beauty. Do you know how much I envy you for sitting in front of him!"
    Lin Jingmo smiled: "Okay, okay, then next time you do better in the exam and try hard to choose a seat and sit next to him."
    They change seats every three months and choose seats based on their test scores. The first place can choose the first one.
    Cheng Yaosi always ranked first in the exams, and she ranked second. Before each seat arrangement, she would choose in advance with her good friends, but every time, Cheng Yaosi would be behind her.
    These things were clearly very far away from her, but now thinking about it, it seemed like it was yesterday.
    Lin Jingmo ate and fell asleep again.
    Cheng Yaosi waited for her breathing to stabilize, then got up and walked to the study to call Chen Weiqing.
    Chen Weiqing was woken up in the middle of the night. Although he was the breadwinner, he was not in a good mood. He said unhappily: "Brother, do you know what time it is now?"
    Cheng Yaosi said: "Find me a reliable psychologist."
    Chen Weiqing woke up at once, moved a cushion and sat up: "Have you finally realized the fact that you are actually a pervert?"
    Cheng Yaosi didn't have time to chat with him, "I want it as soon as possible."
    After he finished speaking, he hung up the phone.
    The fact that Lin Jingmo had suicidal tendencies was always a thorn in his heart. He vaguely felt that it was related to her revenge, which involved another suspicious point that Xie Lin had never been able to figure out.
    If she avenges Liu Tianmei, their apparent emotional foundation and motivation are too weak. Now that she wants to commit suicide after her revenge, "Liu Tianmei" begins to look so vague.
    He feels that he is gradually being stripped away from the tangled memories of the past. He cannot let all this hard-won beauty become out of reach again.
    The author has something to say:
    Give the uncle some sweetness, and start to torture him immediately.