Rose of Heaven

209-210

Lin Jingmo sat in the car for a long time, and everything she saw was still a blur.
It was about to get dark, and tiny gray dust particles floated in the air, stained with dark blue.
After leaving the villa, she did not look back, and moved forward courageously. It seemed that only such an ending could be called an end.
But why did she still feel sour in her heart.
Perhaps, it would have been better if the gun was pointed at her.
"I am an outsider and it is difficult for me to say anything about emotional matters..." Xie Lin saw her crying silently, her eyes looking out the window with empty eyes. For some reason, he wanted to tell her something, "But for your sake, he flew to six or seven countries in a few days, slept on the plane, and processed a lot of information every day without time to eat. If he hadn't changed to a bulletproof car in Xiangcheng, Miss Lin, he would really die."
Lin Jingmo didn't want to say that again. She had been selfish, and now there was no need to continue emphasizing how hypocritical she was.
No matter how small the probability of him getting into trouble is, it still exists. Pushing him out, no matter how powerful he is, no matter how invincible he is in her heart, there are always accidents, just like that old-fashioned question, if two people fall into the river and there is only one lifebuoy, she will give the lifebuoy to Zhou Yanzheng, why bother to say that she doesn't want him to die.
If she says too much, she will hate herself.
But when facing Cheng Yaosi, she can't just stand there and kill him without saying a word, and cut off everything with one knife. As for the reason, she herself can't see it clearly.
Hearing Xie Lin say this, she was stunned and blurted out: "For my business?"
Xie Lin looked at her in the rearview mirror, but he didn't expect Cheng Yaosi to not mention it at all: "You don't know? He used the project cooperation to establish a relationship with the Xiangcheng government. The project was originally landed in Singapore at the beginning, and a lot of money was invested. Suddenly, the location was changed. He had to convince many shareholders and investors. He went to meet them one by one, and finally went to Xiangcheng. For you, he went there even though he knew there was danger. We were going to leave the day before we were chased, but he wanted to get your ring..."
Ring? It was something that Lin Jingmo didn't understand again. Sharp emotions surged in her heart, and Xie Lin continued to talk.
"Ms. Lin, I have worked with him for so many years, and you are the first girl he told me he likes. He lost his mother when he was very young, and when he grew up, he..." Xie Lin paused, feeling that he shouldn't mention Gu Ci'en. Girls are very narrow-minded. Skipping this part, he said, "So he does look difficult to get along with. I admit that he is not likable sometimes, but he has given you everything he can. For this reason, you shouldn't be so cruel to him. He is a very thoughtful person. If he hadn't been on guard against you, how could he fall for such a calculation?"
"He was deeply hurt this time..."
After getting off the car, Lin Jingmo's heart seemed to be hooked by these words, winding into a silk thread, weaving into a net, covering her all over.
She found that these ten years had indeed brought her more than just changes in appearance. From the day she chose revenge, her heart also changed.
In his study, she only wanted to defend herself for her unknown emotions, but she didn't think about telling him the most important thing, to apologize to him.
In the car, Xie Lin asked curiously: Aren't you afraid that he will deal with the Zhou family?
Lin Jingmo didn't explain too much, just said: "He won't."
He is a proud and conceited man. If he is hurt, he will definitely make you hurt, but it's only between you and me. If a third person is involved, especially the one she really likes, he doesn't even bother to retaliate.
Yes, even this point, she has considered for Zhou Yanzheng.
In fact, what's so difficult about reminding him more? She was afraid of exposing herself by saying too much, and always felt that he would be fine. In her heart, he never had a moment of embarrassment. When he was buried under the rubble, his calm expression gave her a lot of courage,
and that side was always engraved in her heart. Maybe because he looked like he couldn't be defeated, she felt that he wouldn't be hurt?
She remembered that in Paris, he left in a hurry, and she forgot to ask him to delete her photos.
Why did she have to delete it at that time? Because she felt that the truth would be known to him one day. Instead of letting him destroy all contact with her with hatred, it would be better for her to do it herself.
It's a very subtle difference.
And the lyrics with changed words.
"It's like there are countless words, but it's a pity that you don't understand."
Lin Jingmo thought, she seemed to understand a little.
But now, it's better not to understand.
...
Zhou Yanzheng, the new boss, needs to visit people everywhere.
Donggang is okay, other people don't know his strength, most of them are watching. Nanyue and Donggang are close, and there are several friends of Zhou Hao, so Zhou Yanzheng must go to meet the uncles.
After learning that Yuan Jianbang had caused a big incident in Xiangcheng and was wanted by the police, Zhou Yanzheng set off for Nanyue and stayed there for two days.
Lin Jingmo and him are now underground lovers, and don't even think about seeing them off at the airport. People around her still think she is in love with Tang Tianyu, and Lin Jingmo has to secretly meet Zhou Yanzheng without telling her assistant.
At this time, she realized that her laissez-faire was indeed not good for anyone. Everyone thought that she and Tang Tianyu were just one step away from an official announcement, but the person she wanted to announce seriously was someone else. Zhou Yanzheng never mentioned this to her, but once, Lin Jingmo found that his Weibo page showed her and Tang Tianyu's pink photos.
While Zhou Yanzheng was in Nanyue, Lin Jingmo felt that it was time to make things clear with Tang Tianyu.
...
They hadn't seen each other since they separated in the hospital last time. A few days later, Tang Tianyu's hair had grown a little longer. Seeing Lin Jingmo coming in with flowers, he smiled and said, "The doctor said I can go home and recuperate tomorrow."
Lin Jingmo placed a bunch of cornflowers in front of his bed.
"Congratulations."
Tang Tianyu noticed that she was not in a good mood, and his eyes darkened: "Are you still angry about the last incident?"
It was strange that Lin Jingmo felt that how she and him started and ended in bed last time was already blurred, but Cheng Yaosi's expression when he held her with his backhand and wanted to leave a wound on her body was still very clear.
She subconsciously didn't want to mention it, pursed her lips, and sat opposite Tang Tianyu: "No, I'm not angry. Senior, I may never be angry with you."
"The flower language of cornflowers is passion, purity, and noble friendship. This is all I want to give you."
Tang Tianyu looked at the blue flowers. He didn't know if his expectations were worn down by her rejection and betrayal again and again. Tang Tianyu felt that his emotional threshold was retreating again and again.
The aunt at home told him that the seedlings he brought back died. At that time, his sadness seemed to be a little stronger than it is now.
"Lin Jingmo, have you ever liked me? It's okay if you didn't like me a little."
He asked her in a faint voice, but his eyes were still looking at the bouquet of flowers.
"No, I am grateful for everything you have done for me." Lin Jingmo thought, if she hadn't died at that time, went to college, and met Tang Tianyu, she might have liked him, but their meeting was a purposeful plan by her, not in that mood, not at that time, and the result was only this one.
She was still so straightforward. Tang Tianyu knew that all her hesitation and indecision were caused by him pretending to be stupid and pestering her. But there was one thing he didn't understand: "So why were you with me at that time?"
Lin Jingmo thought about it and said, "I didn't understand. I thought it was love. Later I understood..."
"Who taught you, that teacher Zhou? Since he taught you, why did you choose me in the hotel?" Tang Tianyu's eyes were bright: "In fact, you haven't told me the truth now. The only truth is that you have never liked me."
He laughed at himself, seeing her very sorry but helpless look, his heart was full of desolation, like a handful of snow: "You really made me have no way out."
Lin Jingmo's eyes were hot, and she said solemnly: "I'm sorry."
If she could only get this sentence after almost dying, Tang Tianyu would rather she didn't say it. He turned over and lay down, his eyes reflecting the paleness of the ceiling: "There's nothing to be sorry about. Take your flowers with you."
Lin Jingmo left the hospital with the bouquet of cornflowers.