Rose of Heaven

235-236

Lin Jingmo hadn't come out of the cloakroom yet. Cheng Yaosi went to look for her. Before he reached the door, he heard the sound of something breaking. His brows tightened and he strode in.

Inside, the vase on the decorative cabinet next to the bag storage cabinet fell to the ground and broke into pieces. Water was flowing everywhere. A few flowers were lying there. Lin Jingmo, who had changed into pajamas, squatted there, as if looking at her fingers.

The red bloodstain was particularly obvious on the white fingertips.

Lin Jingmo stood up, and Cheng Yaosi hurriedly said, "Don't move."

He walked forward, picked her up, walked around the mess and walked out, and said softly, "Are you really sleepy? Why are you so careless?"

Lin Jingmo didn't say anything, just looked at him quietly. Cheng Yaosi put her on the sofa, turned around to get the medicine box, and came back to see that she was still quiet, obedient and thoughtful. A sense of weirdness flashed through his heart, but he enjoyed this kind of stability very much.

The wound was very small, and Cheng Yaosi wiped the blood around it bit by bit. The burning pain went straight into her heart. When he was wrapping the band-aid, Lin Jingmo took a breath with a hiss. This sound startled Cheng Yaosi's originally light and serious expression. He blew gently, looked up at Lin Jingmo, and said, "Does it hurt?"

Lin Jingmo's fingers were still held in his hand. She saw the little herself reflected in Cheng Yaosi's eyes, and the corners of her mouth slowly curved. She stared at him with a stream of light in her eyes: "I'm in pain, why are you nervous?"

Since Chen Xingchen died, Lin Jingmo has become the dark side that is not illuminated by the sun. There is insufficient light, sluggish, passive, and negative. Cheng Yaosi rarely sees such active liveliness in her. He was stunned, and then realized the meaning of Lin Jingmo's words a little bit late.

She was also making it clear: "Since you hate me for hurting you, aren't you happy that I hurt you?"

Cheng Yaosi thought, she has become dull, and she only discovered this now.

Love is more than hate, he thought it was obvious enough.

But he was unwilling to admit it directly. Lin Jingmo was very good at pushing things. When she found out that your bottom line was actually very low, she would find a way to make your bottom line even lower. This ability was like a God-given talent, and she used it to perfection.

True and false are what kill people. Pain is the interpretation of love. Cheng Yaosi has not yet understood the essence, but he has also accepted the same process.

He can imagine that it is not a good thing to admit defeat to Lin Jingmo in love.

"Is it happy to see you bleed and feel pain? I'm not a sadist." Cheng Yaosi put the Band-Aids together. As he said, he suddenly smiled: "Marrying someone you don't like, Lin Jingmo, I think this revenge is enough."

Without giving Lin Jingmo a chance to speak, Cheng Yaosi quickly stood up to put away the medicine box. Lin Jingmo recalled his lonely and self-deprecating smile just now, and felt sour and uncomfortable in his heart.

But, who did he want to give the green rose in the bouquet to, Gu Ci'en or Lin Jingmo.

He had a crush on Gu Ci'en and regarded her as the white moonlight that should not be desecrated, but ten years later, didn't he also fall in love with Lin Jingmo?

In her heart, she always believed that they were two independent people.

That night, they slept in separate beds.