Why him? - XDINARY HEROES

Chapter 42 - Your smile is everything.

Hyeongjuns pov

I woke up after the long day I had with Gunil. I was so tired that I forgot it was Sunday and got all ready for school until I saw Jungsu still sleeping in his room. That's when I remembered that it was Sunday. I went to my room again and went under the blankets and tried falling asleep again. When I couldn't sleep, I took my phone and scrolled on my phone for a while. I had nothing to do, so when I heard Jungsu wake up and was doing something in the kitchen, I jumped out of my bed and went to see him. I saw him making food, so I went next to him to help. "What can I help with?" I asked. He looked at me and smiled. "Do you even know how to do stuff in the kitchen?" Jungsu asked me. I looked at him because I was offended. "Yes, I know stuff in the kitchen, maybe not as much as a lot, but I know a little bit," I said because I was definitely offended. "Well, not really, you can't help because I'm making a surprise for Jiseok," he told me. I was confused about why he would make a surprise for Jiseok. It's not even his birthday. "Why a surprise for Jiseok?" I asked him, confused. "Oh, we didn't tell you guys yet. Oh well, we're dating!" Jungsu said, smiling ear to ear.

The smile that was on face had disappeared slowly. I had tears forming in my eyes. "Are you ok? Hyeongjun?" I heard Jungsu before I left the house. I wanted to get out of there. I wanted to die. I had no idea that Jungsu liked Jiseok?

It upset me. Why him and not me? Why does it always have to be someone else but not me? Am I not good enough? Am I not loveable? Why does he love him and not me? 

I kept on walking outside the dorms, and I ended up at the playground. I would usually go when I needed to take fresh air. I sat on a bench there and kept thinking why he had the chance I didn't. I knew there were tears falling from my eyes, but it didn't matter to me. I kept sitting there as it was better than going to the dorm. 

"Hyeongjun, are you ok?" I heard someone ask. I look up and see Seungmin. I nodded. He had realised that I had been crying. "What's wrong? Why are you crying?" He asked again. "Jungsu and Jiseok are dating," I said. He hugged me. I hugged him back, and I eventually cried, bailing my eyes out. He patted my back to make me feel better, but unfortunately, it wasn't getting better. He had gotten up to call someone who would calm me down. I just hope I feel better. After he had finished calling whoever he called, he came back and sat down next to me. So, I explained everything to him. After a while after I had explained everything, Gunil came. He hugged me. I felt a bit better. Seungmin had left as he saw that Gunil calmed me down a little bit. Gunil stayed with me and made sure I felt better. 

After I had calmed down, he got me to get ice cream, which made me feel even better. He gave me a big ice cream. Which made me smile like a child. He even got me to the cinemas to watch a comedy which was rush hour. I laughed at it so much that I even cried how much my stomach hurt me. Gunil was next to me the whole time, making sure I was having fun. He is such a good friend. If I ever had to have a boyfriend, it would be like Gunil. He was like everything that I wanted. A nice personality who cares about me, and just being him made me like those types. I hope Gunil gets someone who deserves him and someone who can care for him, just as much as he cares for them. 

He had gotten me back to the dorms, but I didn't want to stay at my dorm, so I went with him to his dorm. He sent Jooyeon to go to Jungsu so I could stay with him. He went to the kitchen after he let me in. I had sat on the couch waiting for him. I was on my phone the whole time. He took so long, so I got up and went to the kitchen. I saw him checking up on something that was on the oven, and since I thought it was something to make me feel better, I went to sit back down on the couch. 

He still was in the kitchen, and my curiosity was eating me alive. I wanted to know what he was doing, so I went back up but hid behind the wall and peaked my eyes to see what he was doing. He was decorating the cupcakes. Aww, he was so cute being focused. I looked at him while he was doing it, I noticed how his veins were showing from how much tired his hands got from decorating and making the cakes. I didn't even realise that I kept looking at him. I went and sat down back on the couch after seeing him nearly be done. I went back on my phone. 

 After a while, he came back with a cupcake in his hand. "Hyeongjun, I made this for you!" Gunil said as he came and sat next to me. He handed me the cupcake. It had something written on it. 

'Don't be sad, I can't smile when you're sad'

"Gunil, thank you so much!" I spoke. I hugged him, and he hugged me back. We had a taste of the cupcakes. His cupcake said. 

'Your smile brightens my mood'

I don't know the others yet, but for now, these were enough to make me smile throughout the whole day. Now I know I have Gunil when I'm upset. He somehow brings me comfort, and he makes me feel better whenever I'm sad. 

Sorry for updating so late. I hope you enjoy this chapter. Thank you for giving me motivation and support. Stay tuned for more chapters.
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