Taehyung Imagines

you look happy - part two (requested)

"Y/N, are you awake? We have to go to practice soon." One of your members said as she shook your shoulder to wake you up.

But you weren't sleeping.

You can't remember the last time you had a good night's sleep... probably the last time Taehyung had you wrapped in his arms.

"I'm awake." You quietly replied before turning over to face her.

"Did you even sleep last night?"

"Barely." You replied. "But what's new? I barely sleep anymore."

You sat up and watched your member gaze at you in concern.

Forcing a smile, you assured her that you were fine.

"I'm okay. This breakup is just hard on me. It's going to take me more than just a few weeks to get through it." You explained. "You can let the girls' know I'll be out in a few minutes and then we can head to rehearsal."

"Okay." She said before going to the door, only to turn around again. "Have you considered talking to him?"

You looked over at her as you threw the covers off of your body.

"We all know that this has been hard on you. You and Taehyung were so in love. For a while there, we kinda thought you'd end up getting married."

You sent her a sad smile as she chuckled.

"I'm just saying... maybe he feels the same way. Maybe this breakup was a mistake. Maybe he misses you just as much as you miss him. Just a thought."

She left the room and you reached for your phone before scrolling down to his name... only for you to shake your head and close out of your contacts altogether.

You couldn't call him.

If he didn't feel the same, it would only make things worse.

You can't take the thought of that right now, not with a comeback around the corner.

Setting your phone back down, you quickly got ready before grabbing your things and heading out of the dorm with your members.

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But that didn't make you stop thinking about Taehyung and you repeated the same thing you had before you left - so close to calling as your fingers hovered above the call button in his contact on your phone that you never deleted... only to close out of it because you were too afraid.

In practice, every chance you got, you found yourself scrolling through his Instagram or his members' Instagrams for a glimpse of him.

You've been missing him since the day you broke up.

Every smile that has appeared on your face since that day has been fake or forced because, at the end of the day, you have to mask a lot of your true emotions as an idol so your fans don't worry or your members don't start to become too worried.

You have to put your best foot forward, even on the days when you're truly struggling.

But the days seemed to drag on despite being able to do what you love.

Without that boxy smile you adore so much, without his lips on yours or your skin, without his warm embrace, his deep voice in your ear, or him there to encourage you it all was so much harder to deal with and get through.

So when you were done for the day, you felt relieved and headed back to the dorm as soon as you got the chance because all you wanted was to crawl back into bed and look back at the photos you took of Taehyung when you were together and the photos of you two together, knowing that you'd never get the time back.