I lied to you, my dearest friend,
To shield you from my inner blend
Of pain and fear, a troubled mind,
A secret I sought to confine.
I cut myself, a silent plea,
To ease the weight, set my soul free.
But guilt now gnaws, a heavy load,
As I confess, a truth untold.
I’m sorry for the hurt and fear,
The trust I broke, now crystal clear.
Please forgive me, let me mend,
Your friendship, my guiding hand.
I thought I loved, a friendship's bond,
But craved the normal, a feeling beyond.
My heart yearned for, a common connection,
A love devoid of, any imperfection.
I yearned for the laughter, the shared secrets,
The understanding that went beyond mere intellects.
I sought the comfort, the shoulder to lean on,
A love that would always, be there when I'm gone.
But as time unfolded, I learned to see,
Love's true essence, wasn't normalcy.
In friendship's embrace, I found a treasure,
A love that mattered, beyond any measure.
I realized that love, wasn't about perfection,
But about acceptance, and true connection.
I learned to appreciate, the quirks and the flaws,
That made my friends unique, and worthy of applause.
I learned to cherish, the moments we shared,
The laughter, the tears, the love that we cared.
I discovered that I didn't love her but just loved
Being treated normally and accepted for how I am.
