Bad for you

Chapter 9

Ashanti's POV

My alarm barked at me to get up. I checked it it was 5 am. I looked around but there was no Mikhail. Did I dream of her? I moved to get up but the wetness and slight soreness made me know it was not a dream. I walked to the bathroom and flicked on the light. My eyes instantly found my neck that had two bright red hickeys. My eyes bulged, 'how mi aguh hide them? I know Mikhail wouldn't be outside of the room chilling so she was definitely gone. Why'd she leave without saying something? And why she decide fi mark mi up.

I rolled my eyes ignoring the fact that she's not here and focused on the matter at hand. My mom knows, Dad won't see but at school and on the bus it will be a topic of discussion. I huffed and puffed as nothing Google said was working as if they were imbedded and I was running out of time so all I could do is get ready. I made sure to put on my black hoodie over my uniform in an aim to limit the view of my neck and while on the bus I felt normal.

I got to Bio class and sure enough Shantel waved at me to come join her. I sat next to her trying to be as cool as possible so she wouldn't look at my neck. Our teacher wasn't here as yet.

"Was Mikhail with you?" She asked with her voice laced with concern.

"Yes she was" I answered, interested in knowing what happened. "Why are you asking?"

"She took a jet this morning. Seemed in a rush to leave without informing anyone. I was wondering since you're the last person to have seen her if she said anything because no one understands what caused her to leave like that when she was so much better" she said sounding sad.

"I woke up to an empty bed, she said nothing to me about leaving" I told her, but lowkey I was worried. Why did she disappear after all that intimacy. Does intimacy with me scare her that much she'd just up and leave like that?

"Are those hickeys??" She gasped as she glimpsed my neck. I didn't move to cover them to avoid pulling attention.

"Yes"

"Did she fuck you?"

I turned to look at her because why does that matter and how would that affect her leaving?

"Why are you asking?" I didn't know how to answer but I don't think I need to.

She got really calm and stopped talking instantly. She went on her phone and started texting. I didn't say anything because I'm just confused. I'm in confusion and the one person who can clear this is absent and the cause.

I tried to learn something today but everything went through one ear and out the other. 'Why did she up and leave?' I tried calling 50 times and that was my limit. Obviously she's ignoring me and Shantel was upset too so I just stuck to myself survived the day and went on like I used to despite the fact that now I was actually sad.

I was walking to my bus when I felt someone hold my shoulder. To my surprise it was Shantel and the minute I turned around she hugged me. I didn't even know I needed that until I found myself hugging her back.

"I'm sorry I overreacted, I was just worried" I nodded in response but said nothing. I just needed to go home and take a break from all this.

"Did you hear from her?" I asked.

"She told my aunt she's just off on an important meeting in Singapore and she'll be back when it's over" she explained.

I know she does some business and holds a really high up title either CEO or COO but I still don't think that's what made her leave. I think I'm the problem because I'm the one who can't reach her and given what happened last night I get it wasn't sex but still common courtesy would state tell me to you're leaving and not let me wake up to you in another country.

"Okay" I said appreciating her telling me but sad about the news.

"Want me to take you home?" She suggested, but i politely declined. "I'm okay, I'll see you tomorrow?"

"Of course" she smiled and gave me one last hug before walking off as I walked to the bus.

Deeven know when mi reach home. Just a operate subconsciously. Told Mommy 'evening' and walked to my room before she spoke.

"How comes Mikhail leave suh sudden this morning?"

This is my first romantic relationship and I wouldn't want to spoil it with giving a bad impression. "She had a really important meeting overseas and had to leave" I tried explaining.

"Suh she just jump pon plane when she feel like then?" My mom asked trying to be smart with me.

"Yes mommy, it's her plane so she goes on it when she feels like" I answered before walking away.

"Who yaah talk to suh? Yuh think mi and yuh a size? Yaah come wid woman problem?"

"Mommy she literally went on a private plane, I'm tired she woke me up really early I'm going to bathe and lay down" I explained.

"Think mi nuh see yuh neck. She more than wake yuh up this morning"

I couldn't listen to another word coming out of my mother's mouth. We nuh talk enough fi a have dah conversation deh. I dropped my bag and now it my shoes at the door and walked straight to the bathroom. This is the kinda day to listen some Neyo and take an 'everything shower'.

3 hours later.......

I tried every position I loved to fall asleep in but nothing worked. Her scent was all over my sheets and I couldn't get myself to change them not able to choose between suffering from wanting more or lacking more. I miss her. I got accustomed to her in a short period of time and she just jumped and left without an explanation and it's puzzling me. Is this a normal thing? Will she disappear every time she gets what she wants?

The thoughts antagonized me throughout the night and I could barely get any sleep in. I was drained. By the time I was to wake up I was exhausted and pulling myself along and just being a zombie. I checked the mirror one more time caz depression coulda stand up inna mi neck back mi a ketch up mi hair and drop two edges caz 'pretty girls learn at school' is my aesthetic. I saw the hickies and felt even worst. Why did she leave??