Wonderwall

-06- Meri

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I probably slept for three hours at most last night.

I was up thinking about everything and insomnia doesn't help.

Archer is back.

Dalton broke up with me.

I'm finally away from home.

Am I happy or sad? That is one question that won't leave my mind.

When it's around 4:30 a.m., I force myself out of bed and do my morning routine that includes pilates, writing in my journal, shower, and then getting ready.

I'm not able to do much for pilates because my chest hurts pretty bad but I just ignore it and do my best.

I'm used to the pain now– life feels weird when I'm not in pain.

People have sad face when I tell them thay but it is my reality and so normal for me

I change into my outfit for today and pick out baggy jeans with a plain white ribbed tank and keep a hoodie just in case I get cold.

I hop onto the counter of the dorm bathroom and start doing my skincare and makeup. It's so easy and comfy this way.

While I'm doing my stuff, my phone starts buzzing with messages from the groupchat  about the first day and what time we will meet for breakfast.

Everyone is talking in there except for Archer. He thinks that he is too cool for us and I roll my eyes at the thought.

He acts like he just shoved his childhood under a mat and that part of his life is just gone. He used to be such a bubbly and happy kid. The complete opposite of now.

I finish my makeup and apply a last touch of my lipgloss when I hear a loud doorslam from the next door dorm. Archer.

I jump at the noise but then realize that I'm probably gonna have to get used to it now.

I'm packing my tote bag when I hear a knock at my door and through the little peep hole I see Azaria standing there looking all cute and dressed up in a floral sundress.

I open the door and crouch down to her level. "Good morning Aria , how are you pretty girl?" I want a child now.

"Hi Mer, mama said that I could come to everyone's rooms to say hi but then I heard Archer being really loud and came to you."

Aw poor baby. I really really wanna smack the high ego out of Archer.

"It's okay angel. I'm done and my bag is ready, wanna go get all our other friends from their rooms?"

She softly nods her head and whispers a quiet okay.

I grab my bag and keys and make sure to lock the door on my way out. I look down at Azaria and see her holding out her tiny hand towards me so I can hold it. She is such a cutie pie.

We first knock on Kingston's door and almost right away he opens the door, dressed in trackpants and a plain white tee. He looks at us and smiles, "hey guys, didn't know I would be getting picked up from my room. I like this service and seeing my girls in the morning." He slightly ruffles Ari's hair making her giggle.

"Hey Mer, did you grab water for yourself?" Woopsie daisy.

I slowly shake my head no in slight embarrassment because we both know about my bad habit of forgetting about water.

He goes back into his room and grabs me an extra bottle. "You need to stop forgetting Merideth, you and me both know that it isn't good for you."

"Yea, yea I know King and thank you so much."