Akutagawa X Reader Oneshots

Just to be Good Enough (Part 2)

"That's quite enough little man. I don't appreciate being ignored on my own ship." Francis frowns.

Akutagawa uses Rashomon to pierce the guild leader's hand. Even though you knew how to fight your special ability was healing so it wasn't useful in this situation. You wanted to help but you also remember Akutagawa's word to not get in his way.

You feel extremely useless but knew he would get mad if you jumped into the fight. So you stood in the shadows of the ship watching and waiting for the out come of this exchange. Your thoughts were interrupted.

"Shut up." Akutagawa says.

"My main course is the were tiger. I would like my dessert to wait quietly."

Francis didn't take his statement lightly and punches Akutagawa.

You softly gasp trying not to attract attention to yourself.

"I would like it if you reconsider."

Francis leaves Akutagawa no choice but to fight.

"Very well then." The two battle it out and it becomes evident that the leader of The Guild was a strong enemy. Francis spend more money and knocked Akutagawa down.

"Ryuu!!" You scream. The realization of what you just did hit you and you cover your mouth with your hands. You had never called Akutagawa by his first name before and it just slipped out. Francis paid no attention to you and directed his gaze back to the empty spot were Atsushi was laying.

The were tiger jumped down from the ceiling and places Francis in a headlock. The leader of The Guild effortlessly pulled him off of his back and threw him to the ground. Atsushi quivers on the ground and Francis looks at him with a mix of disgust and pity. You didn't notice as Akutagawa rose to his knees and used Rashomon to dig a hole underneath you, the were tiger and himself. While Francis was talking on and on the floor under you gives out and you fall a few floors down.

When your shock wears off you watch as Atsushi tries to make a run for it but Akutagawa uses his Rashomon to grab his ankle and he fell to the ground.

"Earlier I told you that I found your actions incomprehensible. I take that back. You keep fighting cause you need feel the need to earn permission to exist. Your even willing to sacrifice your own life for it. You make me sick."

Akutagawa pauses to stab Atsushi through his shoulders.

"You couldn't be that naive, could you? No one can grant you that affirmation."

He pulls the were tiger closer to his face.

"No stamp certifies that you deserve to live. Do you think risking your life for others will earn you a place in this world?!?" He shouts.

"Since when is it a crime to believe it will?" Atsushi replies weakly.

Akutagawa throws Atsushi across the floor.

"Your pathetic. I never expected you to be this much of a fool. I could kill you a hundred times over if i wanted to and I'd accomplish nothing. Only victory in battle has real value. Without those successes I'll never gain any acknowledgement."

He gets a sad look on his face as if he was thinking about something. Your heart melts slightly wondering what kind of trauma he has went through to get this sort of ideology.

"Not even from Dazai." he continued.

Before you could consider what that meant there was a loud crash. It was Francis. He lunges at Akutagawa and they battle for a few seconds.

Out of the corner of your eye you spot Atsushi running for the elevator. Moving without think you jump over Francis and grab Akutagawa's hand and pull him inside the elevator. When it closed you realized that you were still holding his hand you blush hard and pull your hand away. He also had a similar look on his face and gave an embarrassed cough.

But just before he turned away you saw a small tint of blush on his face. Remembering that the were tiger was still here you jumped away and faced the elevator wall. Akutagawa copies your movements and Atsushi starts speaking.

"Fitzgerald's ability is out of our league. My only chance is to find a way to steal the terminal from him."

Akutagawa laughs "Is there no end to your ignorance? This elevator goes to the ship's deck with no other exits to speak of. You'll have us trapped like rats in a maze. I can't believe i once allowed you to best me in battle. It fills me with shame. It makes it all the worse knowing you can't even justify your own right to live."

"I may be pathetic like you said but I'm still better than you. At least I'm not a murderer who exists only to flaunt my own strength." Atsushi counters.

"Say that again." Akutagawa says narrowing his eyes.

"You have so much power and statis." the were tiger continues ignoring what Akutagawa says. "Yet the only reason you fight is so that people will fear you. Your telling me that not pathetic?!"

Akutagawa uses Rashomon to grab on to Atsushi's neck

"You take that back, were tiger. You think i have power and statis? Let me make it clear to you why you disgust me."

He raises his voice." IT'S BECAUSE YOU ARE ALWAYS FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELF. CONSTANTLY DWELLING ON THE PAST. DISPITE THE FACT THAT YOU HAVE EVERYTHING YOU COULD WANT IN THIS WORLD! Your blessed with your gift, blessed with friends, and with nothing but sheer luck. You are praised and revered by Dazai. You don't even understand how lucky you are. Yet all you can do is lick your old wounds."

You recall the words that Akutagawa said earlier. You could feel you sympathize with him and seeing this new side of him made you fall in love even more. You just wanted to give him a hug and tell him it's okay.

The elevator stopped and you three were standing on the deck of the Moby Dick. It was windy and it sent shivers up your spine. Francis had beaten the elevator and was waiting for us to arrive.

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