I..I..Sorry

feelings

Pond joined his cousin in her room as she was currently preparing and they started talking. Asking everyone to leave for a second as she wanted to talk with pond.

P'milk( pond's cousin ) says " Pond can I ask you something, tell me do you like your friend? I mean phuwin..."
Pond smiles shyly asking" why do you ask P' ..." and she says " it's all in the way you look at him. You smile and look at him like a treasure piece. Okay let's put it this way, whenever you see him do you have thoughts like you want to protect him, be there when he cries and smiles, cherish him, make memories with him, hold him when he's cold, do you get worried when you stay a day without talking to him or seeing him, do you feel like your heart would be empty without him, like when you think of him not being in the frame you feel lonely"

P'milk said not knowing everything she said is exactly how Pond felt. As far as he is concerned phuwin has become his world, not because of the baby but it seems he had been curious about this boy he didn't know from the onset. But the boy's nightmares and troubles caused by him only made him worry about the possibility of ever being allowed into his life in that way.

Pond says" P' I do like him, I Love him but I can't tell him just yet. I don't think he will accept me"

P'milk doesn't know everything that happened between pond and phuwin she could only encourage him to express his feelings. Unknown to them phuwin was right outside the room. He came looking for pond asking him about his new pack of  medicines pond bought and ended up hearing the whole conversation. He didn't know how to feel but he certainly had a thought about the possibility of Pondphuwin being a thing. He left from there being in thoughts

Phuwin's Pov
I can't make head or tails about everything I just heard. Wait Pond likes me?? But how can I possibly like him when he is the same face I see beating me up in my nightmares and doing that thing to me. And how can he like me? Doesn't he like mag anymore?. Well he said they broke up but did he break up with her cause of me or because he is guilty , did he like me before breaking up with her or after breaking up with her...ugh this is giving me a headache. Well I see the way he cares for me and pays attention but is it for me or the baby.
Wait why are my thinking of this am 17 gees I promised myself no relationship,  get over it phuwin and focus,  have this baby , take care of it, go back to school, achieve dreams and that's it. No time for love especially not Pond. Anyways I am too lazy to think now, Chiang mang. Oii

In the evening, pond and phuwin all set go down to the hall. Phuwin loves everything about the wedding and even cries happily for the couple. P' Milk loves phuwin. to her he is like a second junior brother and as he hugs her telling her congratulations tearfully, she smiles giving the same hug with the same intensity full of love for him. She whispers in his ears " Someone around here loves you too so damn much phuwin, You just need to open your heart and eyes to see that. You mean the world to him" and phuwin smiles understanding what she means and he doesn't know why but he feels happy inside. The party gets wild after and pond has his eyes on phuwin.

Phuwin has never had liquor before and he wanted to try it so bad but he knew pond won't let him, so he tried to sneak away from pond to have just a sip and pond catches him saying " phuwin No, you can't" and phuwin begs saying " just a little, I just want to taste it huh" and his cute pouts almost melts pond's heart but he insists saying a firm No which makes phuwin sad and he wants to throw tantrums but P'milk comes for him indulging him to dance with her.
For a moment pond sighs in relief happy that P'Milk came over saving him from phuwin's upcoming Tantrum.