I..I..Sorry

Longing

Time went by pretty fast. Phuwin has been feeling better due to therapy. It's been a month three weeks already. Phuwin still has nightmares but not about that night anymore. This time he dreams of him being alone in a dark space crying. The therapist said he was improving. Also with studies he is doing okay so far. But from time to time, his belly would hurt a lot and he had some back aches. But the doctor mentioned its all normal. Today he was at home watching a movie with Win. It was a romantic film with lots of kissing scenes. Suddenly he started fantasizing about pond doing that to him, the touches he yearned for. The doctor warned he would feel horny sometimes but today seems to be different. As they watched the film he couldn't help but feel hot, and he was feeling different. He suddenly stood up telling win he would go to his bedroom to rest. Which win found unusual because he was just resting before they started the film.

In the room , the images of his imagination kept on flashing in his mind he tried to get it out of his thoughts by reading but he couldn't. Now it seems he was having a boner which was uncomfortable. So he thought about relieving himself but couldn't reach so easily. The thoughts and his horniness were growing on him and with pond being away, no matter how much he yearns for him, he can't make him feel better.

Overwhelmed he just laid down and cried. Pond's mum came in checking up on him when she heard his sobs and she worriedly asked what happened
Phuwin turned to face her and sitting up  he looked at her and looked down saying " I I was watching a movie..and it was a romantic movie ..." She nodded as she noticed the movie that was on in the living room while win was watching.
Phuwin continued tearfully " and I... I dont know what to do but I.. I started feeling different and I...I.. "
She said " You want Pond"
He nodded crying as he looked up to her face and looked back down in shame.

Phuwin said " I am sorry. But I do want him. I can't help myself. Maybe it's my hormones I am saying such things, I am sorry Mum"...

Overtime he had learnt how to call her mum so it became a thing although now he was really shy and embarrassed he told her about his serial needs which is normal.

She smiled at him and hugged him saying " you don't have to be shy or feel bad baby, mummy knows. I tell you what, when I was pregnant with pond, I felt same and worse. I was so shameless and craved for my husband's touch. I even interrupted his meeting when I couldn't take it anymore"... this made phuwin laugh lightly in between his sobs.
She smiled saying " I know you long for him, it's normal son. You need him now the most, but sadly he isn't here. I am sorry son that I couldn't bring him to you nor stop him. You want just him right?"

Phuwin looks at her nodding. She hugs him saying " it's okay. Shush just a little more , wait just a little bit he will be with you soon baby .

Phuwin needs Pond's warmth and touch and not just any man. Just the father of his babies. Pond's Mum knew that, reasons why she didn't suggest to help him nor ask win to help him. Phuwin would only endure while waiting for him.

The days continued to go by, and he still yearned for pond but he tried to get his mind off it, when sleeping he would usually cuddle with Win or Pond's mum or Winny's mum.
He tried learning new hobbies like painting and focused on school. Therapy was working magic on him. Although in the beginning he was having a hard time but now, it seemed he had learnt and had forgiven pond. Pond would still occasionally send videos of himself through his mum, and phuwin would do same.

Hi guys sorry I delayed updating. I swear I have had a stressful week with work and I didn't get admission at the universities I wanted for the programs I wanted, so sadly I have been a bit down. But Yay I try to cheer up, we only live once right? And some I would be old and forget about this difficult times so I gotta keep living🥰❤️.