In Love With My Sister Husband

Chapter 19

MALANI P.O.V.

Between my sister and Harlem calling me I felt like I was drowning in sorrow. I just turned my phone off and put it on my night stand pulling the covers over me as tears kept rolling down my face nothing could stop my tears. I never imagined I could be this heartbroken in my life! All the times I thought I was heart broken don't compare to this! Where do I go from here? My sister is like my best friend. Do I break down and tell her everything or do I just continue to let her live her fairytale life with the man I'm in love with.

Why do I always get the short end of the stick? Life never works out for me. Maybe I'm just meant to be alone all my life.

Malani! I heard a females voice calling my name. "I've been calling you!" Rose said as she entered my bedroom.

I wiped my face and tried to dry it the best way I could so she wouldn't know I was crying. "My phone is dead I just haven't put it on the charger." I lied.

For two days?

Yeah....

I'm sorry about what mommy said to you at the dinner, you didn't deserve that! She said as she kicked her shoes off and got into my bed. I was fighting to hold my tears back. "I never knew you had an abortion, why didn't you tell me?"

It wasn't something I was ever proud of. I admitted.

Apart of me wanted my baby so bad and the other part of me figured I'd never fully have Harlem to myself. I didn't have the support from my parents my dad was always gone on business and said he wasn't raising no more kids. My mom was just a bitch! She made me feel like shit. She didn't think I would ever amount to anything cause I would have been a teen mom cause I was already doing what I wanted. I never brung Harlem around my family because they were so judgmental and my dad never wanted us to date drug dealers or street dudes. Say they only come with trouble and only want one thing from you which was sex. I didn't listen though. I met Harlem when I was 14 getting out of my freshman year of high school. He was the bad boy, always got in trouble at school. I seen Harlem slanging in the streets a few times. He was 15 going on 16 when we actually met and started talking. I was at a party and my friend left me to go be with some dudes. He thought it was foul and walked me home. We took our time though. We talked so much getting to know each other. He was so funny and a gentleman. I developed the biggest crush on him that night. We stayed out at the park up the street from my house until 5:30 in the morning. He was my first kiss, my first boyfriend, my first love, and the boy I lost my virginity to. It was a little after my 16th birthday and he was trying to get his own house when he got out of jail. He was staying with a friend and I missed him so much. That day I spent all day with him in the house. I told him I wanted to fuck him. He laughed in my face and called me a joke. But once I got naked in front of him he knew I was serious. I wasn't his first but I knew he was super experienced. He took his time with me and made sure I was okay. That I was never in any pain. Said he wanted every part of me. I lost my virginity that day and that's the day he told me he loved me.

Months had went passed and all we did was have sex everyday all day! I found out I was pregnant cause I kept falling asleep in school and I wasn't feeling good almost everyday. I would throw my lunch up. The nurse called my mom after I thought I had a stomach bug. My mom came and got me from school and brought me home. She had a pregnancy test waiting for me. I was scared to take one cause pregnancy never crossed my mind.
When I took it two lines appeared instantly. I was so scared and nervous to walk out the bathroom and into my room where my parents were waiting for me. I took my phone and sent a picture of the test to Harlem and he told me to call him. But my mom bursted into the bathroom and I dropped the test as she scared me. She picked it up and was so angry. She was more so worried about her image and how she would look if she had a 16 year old daughter pregnant. I didn't know what to do! She told me she hated me a couple times and I ruined her youthful years, why would I make a baby especially with a boy who's gonna leave me and make me a single mother. She was going off air cause she didn't know Harlem. But for some reason I believed her cause all I could always do was think about how Harlem had bitches and was fuckin other girls. It just made me so insecure. He was happy about the pregnancy and wanted the baby. I told him if we aren't going to be together then I'm getting an abortion. He said we were together then I seen him texting other bitches. It hurt my feelings and my hormones were all over the place so my mom convinced me abortion was the right thing. I was scared I didn't wanna get one, I wanted my baby. I wanted it to just be me and him finally, but Harlem also didn't stop me either so I asked my mom to take me to get an abortion and we were on the first thing smoking after that.

I tried to block those memories out my head as much as possible but Rose bringing it up made me think about it all over again. My heart mourned for that child and when we got back together I got on birth control immediately after because I was scared I'd get put in that position again and I wasn't ready for that. So Harlem made me a promise he'd never have a kid with anyone if it wasn't with me, because I always was suppose to have his first kid.

Yeah but I could have had a niece or nephew grown as hell by now! Who was your baby father?

Nobody he doesn't matter....

Wow I'm sorry that you thought abortion was your option Lani! Rose said leaning in to hug me. I could feel her small round belly starting to form and that was enough to make my tears swell back in my eyes.
"All this news! Who was you engaged to? Your ring is absolutely beautiful that's at least 10 karats. That shit is expensive!" She joked trying to lighten the mood.

Nobody!

Yeah right he's a somebody! Big boy got bank too! That ring is cold! I can't wait for the day Harlem updates my ring.

So you really like him huh? I sniffled.

I love him sissy! And like I know I came over here to check on you cause you went missing for a few days and I doubt you wanna hear about this after what mommy said to you and all but Malani I love him! I can't wait to have his baby we're both so excited about. He's like a breath of fresh air. He so nice and caring. He's sweet and always make sure I'm taken care of. Did you know BX is a billion dollar company. Yeah I can't wait to sign my name on the doted lines as Rosaliee Henderson.

Whose last name is Henderson?

Harlems!

No it isn't....his last name is Hendrix! I was so disgusted right now.

Wow this whole time I thought it was Henderson. She laughed twirling her fingers in her hair. "Did you know BX stood for Brooklyn Xora? If we're having a girl I'm definitely naming her that. I know that name means something to him, he has it tattooed on his index finger. Such a cute name. Our baby being names after his business!"

Wait no you can't do that! I panicked. I'm just now realizing the letters BX and what they stand for which is Brooklyn Xora. When I was pregnant and said if it was a girl that's what we were gonna name her. Brookly cause his name was Harlem. I'll die if she names her baby that!

Why?

Your baby just deserves a better name I think you could do better. I explained.

I can cant I! Look I know you sad and all but we need to get you happy. I still owe you that shopping trip.

Honestly Rose I don't feel good and I rather go back to laying in bed alone and quiet.

Ewww no! That's how you get depressed. You know what ima ask my man do he have any friends. Ima hook you up with someone. You deserve to be happy to.

I don't ever wanna date again Rose! I said angrily. If it wasn't for her I'd be dating by now.

I got you sis! You not gonna get dressed!

It's too late for that!

Well tomorrow we are going dress shopping for my wedding and I want you to be there so I need you to get up and get undepressed cause I need you there! She squealed in excitement. "I'll let you finish the day being sad but when I come back tomorrow be cute and be ready to stay go out, it's plenty of fish in the sea Malani fuck your exfiance!" She scattered as she got up from my bed to leave. I need to change my locks!