Shattered Wishes ((Watty's 2015 Entree))- COMPLETED

Chapter 4

A/n: This chapter is dedicated to dustergurl2 for helping me with my tiny writer's block! Thanks girl! You rock :)

I looked back and immediately knew I was looking at Dimitri. My mentor and ex lover when I left the Academy. My heart raced and I felt like I might puke. Again. Stay calm.. I told myself. But how could I?! My ex was standing right in front of me, looking right at me, even! I swallowed hard and jumped at my Mom's touch on my shoulder.

"Sweetie? You alright?"

"Y-yeah.. Just ready to get inside." I told her. My eyes were still locked on his and my heart just felt like it could burst out at any moment. Calm. Stay calm. I kept reminding myself.

My mother smiled and told me to head on in, which I dashed instead of walked to the door. I felt like every part of me was going to explode. Why did I care so much about him when I left him two months ago? It was crazy! I shouldn't care about what goes on at the Academy because I'm no longer staying there. It wasn't my home anymore. So. Why. Do. I. Care. So. Much? I had no clue. I bit down on my lip as music blared around me from the skating rink. Expecting no more interruptions from people that I had run away from I gladly paid for my skates and waited on a bench for my Mother to come in.

As I did my mind went back to the test results... What if the Doctor's find more? What if they can't treat it because it's already spreading through me? I shivered at the thought and pinched my palm with my fingernails. Don't think about it! Damn it, why couldn't I take my own advice for? It's not something they can easily treat for. They barely have any cures for what I have. I think the most saddest thing of all is that I'm letting my own Mother take care of me through this. I shouldn't let her in. I should have told her to stay with her charge in Europe. But I didn't know who else to call so I had rung up her number and told her everything. She was on the flight to Montana within the next two hours.

I felt a tiny jolt as I had gotten up. I was getting restless and wasn't paying any attention to my surroundings because of my coherent thoughts. "Oh. I'm sorry." I said and noticed a guy- that was about my age that was tall and lean. But I knew this person. I knew it before I met his ice blue eyes.

"C-Christian." I stammered and immediately looked for an exit sign. He grabbed my arms, tugging me into one of the rooms that were deemed for parties.

"Rose." He said, looking me up and down.

Oh no. Oh god fucking no! I can't talk to him. Just let me go! I thought as I looked straight at him. When he got done examining me he met my gaze with his. "Rose..." He said. "What has gotten into you? Why did you leave?"

"It's none of your business!" I exclaimed.

"Rose. You left without telling anyone! You haven't sent word to Lissa or to Belikov since you left! Lissa hasn't been the same since you left! You have got to come back! Please. For her." Christian.... Sarcastic, cynical Christian was begging. Wow didn't see that one coming.

"Christian, I-I can't. I'm sorry!"

"Damn it Rose! Lissa's your best friend! You should want to be there for her! Not just leaving like you did- and for absolutely no reason at all!" His voice filled the room- loud and booming.

I blinked and was scared because Christian never yelled- unless he was being a sarcastic asshole. That it shocked me into speechlessness. I swallowed and got shook by Christian. "Please come back! For your best friend!"

I swallowed again and felt my heartbeat in my ears, every part of my body actually. Could I? Could I go back and be there for her? But that would also mean I'd have to see Dimitri... "Okay." I said after a few moments turning thoughts around. "I'll go back with you. I just need to tell my Mother that I'm going back."

I went back to where my mother was and told her urgently: "Lissa needs me but I'll give you regular updates."

She grabbed my arm as I had went to go out with Christian. "No! You're not. Your health isn't good to go back to the Academy! It's probably the reason how you got it in the first place." She said protectively.

"Mom!" I exclaimed. "That's not your right to tell me what I can or can't do! I have to go because I'm still Lissa's Guardian and duty is calling! I can't sit around and wait for those test results! I just can't!" My voice cracked and I felt tears about to leak over. "I have got to distract myself from it! If I don't, it will only drive me further off the edge! So back the fuck off!" I pulled my arm out of her grasp and walked out with Christian.