She is breathing properly now. The rate is steady and her body relaxed in my hold. I picked her up in my arms, exiting the bathroom and laid her gently on the bed.
I'd never want to admit it but the truth is.. I was scared.
I really was.
For a moment maybe, I was distraught to find her in that condition. Though, I knew that she has suicidal tendencies but I could have prevented it. Everything happened in a fraction of a few minutes and I was dazed.
I can't even blame her because the fault is mine. She was not supposed to run into Stella. It should have been me talking to her and explaining everything to her fragile mind rather than her finding it on her own.
But I had to look into some security issues and so I arrived home late.
My second marriage means nothing to me. Stella means nothing to me. She's just a guest for some days, and to put it in better terms, she is a pawn in my game. A liability which I had to accept in order to validate my strong presence in this game.
Power means everything to me. But I am not the one to get married for it. This alliance was not about gaining anything, rather it was to save everything I have earned till this date.
It is a mess bigger than one can think of. I sighed, my eyes landing on this pretty lady whose eyes are still closed.
I slipped my hand in hers, rubbing it with my comparatively bigger and calloused hand. This feeling is just out of the world. Her skin is so soft, and she is easy on my eyes too.
I could spend forever admiring her like this.
It's not just her appearance that I am fond of. I am fond of her whole. In these four months I missed her like crazy, for no reason.
I wonder when it was that I lost it all to her. Was it the day when she slapped me? Was it the day I found those bruises on her arms? Was it the day when I was treating her burns? Was it the moment when she kissed me? Was it that hour when she confided in me about her past?
I don't know.
I just know that she is my queen and she deserves to be treated like one. My one and only, Mi Reina.
My feelings are not that deep but certainly, they are not shallow either. I am the man who can tackle any physical attraction. Lusting over someone is far from me.
The fondness and affection I have for Y/n is something I am experiencing after a long time. It feels like I have a family which is worth every sin I must not commit but I'd still do it for them.
But somehow, I sinned this woman whom I wanted to cherish. I just hope it's not too late for me to make amends.
I heard second chance romance is trending nowadays.
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Renegade : A Mafia Romance
Fanfiction"Leave her" I said. He raised his brow at my words and I understood what he wanted. "Please..." I begged and a smug grin erupted on his lips. He took my chin between his fingers while tracing his thumb over my face. "Don't beg, sweetheart. Just sign...