The Secret Life of Blythe

9. Leo

I feel like throwing up as I stand looking in to Blythe's beautiful eyes.
"When are you leaving?"
"Tomorrow " I answer in short.
She nods in acceptance, her bottom lip quivering and breaking my heart.
"How many days?"
"Three, I'll be back on Tuesday" I say. 
"It's quite a high profile case Blythe, I'll be busy the whole time and Mattia has my back, he's promised to hide me somewhere that she won't get near this time". 
She starts to laugh in that defeated way and I feel helpless to the cause.
"She can't fuck something that won't work for her!" I shout in pure frustration as she starts to cry.
"But it does Leo!  And all too well, if you remember!" 
I rush toward her as I feel my own tears spilling out. This is supposed to be a happy time for us, I can't believe I'm letting this family fuck me over again, they've taken everything from me and I'll be damned if they ruin my marriage.

After what feels like an eternity of us standing and rocking each other, she whispers in to my ear.
"Do what you have to do to get her out of your system, I'm not sharing your heart anymore Leo. Whatever fractured bullshit fragments are lingering for her, get rid of them!"
"Don't say that Blythe" I cry, the pain of her words hurting me deeply.
"It's never happening for me and Gia Fucking Emelio!" I say sternly closing my eyes to ward off the headache that's hitting me. 
"It already is Leo, you're just too damn blind to see it" she whispers in the saddest tone I've ever heard.  I can feel my rib cage crushing at the weight of it all. 
"Promise me Leo, if you feel your life's in danger just do what you have to and get home to me, I can't bare the thought of that mother fucker putting a gun to your head" she snaps angrily. 

I nod resting my head on top of hers, my tears race down my cheek bones.  I'm wracked with guilt and disgust of having to make this trip. She snivels again, and on a broken sob she whispers her final piece of gut wrenching advice. 
"She's gonna hound you Leo, she's gonna throw everything in her arsenal at you"
"Fuck, I'm sorry Blythe" I cry. 
"If, if, she stutters. When you break just promise me one thing she says as she looks up at me.
"Blythe, stop please! I can't hear it" I say putting my hands over my ears now. 
"You can't hear it Leo because this is my Leo, she says patting my chest.  The good man, is right here with me but as soon as you step back in New York and she works on you, your fucking dumb side will come out and you'll fuck everything up!" She screeches at me at the end of her tether as I cry in pain. 
"Just don't fuck her bare, wear a condom" she says as we both slump toward each other, crying hysterically this time.  I hold her tighter as we ugly cry, harder than I have in years.
"Baby I ain't sticking my cock anywhere near her so please don't say shit like that!"  I ask in utter defiance. 
She stutters several times whilst trying to voice her words through her sobs.
"She studied law like you did!  She wants you to be with her Leo! A woman doesn't spend years at school studying the same as her love if she didn't!"

It's the first time I've learned about what she did after she left for college all those years ago. My blood boils at her game play.
"She'll try and trap you any way she can!" 
"Don't put a baby in her!"  she says in the most frantic voice I've heard yet.
"Fuck Blythe, "stop! I can't hear anymore!"
"You're the mother of my babies" 
"Only you!" 
"Only ever you!" I say as I take deep breaths, trying to calm my thumping heart rate down.  My legs have gone to jelly so I pull Blythe down to the floor on my lap and squeeze her as tight as I can until neither of us has any room left between us. "Why have you given up on me? I don't want her Blythe!"  I cry.
"I haven't wanted her for years!"
She finally looks me in the eyes and leans to give me the sweetest kiss.
"I think you're under estimating the true depth of your feelings Leo". 
"I think you've swept them under the carpet all these years, confusing them for hate, but there's a fine line between that and the other"
"You've never truly faced it all and put it to bed with her, have you?"
I hiss at her insinuation that I might still be in love with the bitch. 
"Don't give up Blythe, if you knew how much I damn well love you, you'd never doubt a thing".  I lean in to kiss her again, there's so much said in this one kiss and I feel it all, down to my bones.  I just hope she does too.