Sex, Drugs, Money, & Love (complete)..also editing

Chapter 26

Nique **

I woke up sore and tired. I made Zihir breakfast and gave his meds the way I did last night. By secret force. Chop that shit up and put it in his food.

" Baby " I call.

" Whats up? " He ask as I came in.

" Im going out for a minute. Need anything? " I ask. He reched under the bed and pulled outsomething. A gun. He tossed it to me on safety. Easily I caught it.

" For you to carry this and not speak to anybody " He says. I roll my eyes. " I can't just go out and be anti-social Zihir " I tell him.

" Yeah the hell you can and will " He says. I heard the first part of a relationship is always the best and easiest because youkre just getting to know them and you mostly see the good. That was true for me at first because our relationship was so great. Then shit like this. I got mixed feelings bbecuase I have my own things going on and I don't want to have to watch and babysit my crazy boyfriend.

Then again. I know I got to be by his side. I live for the motto " If you can't handle me at my worst you sure in the hell don't deserve me at my best "

I took the gun and walked out. I was going to pick up Mya so we can handle some business. Got to grab Ty ass to cause thats our back bone.

Sitting in the all black car I just sighed. So much drama. I just want to run the fuck away and go on vacation. But Business is leaving me here. Pulling out I turn on my Ipod. Its 2013 don't nobody listen to the damn radio no more.

" Somebody said everyday was going to be Sunny skies

Only Marvin Gaye and lingerie,

I guess somebody lied.

Started discussing it, to fighting then ' don't touch me please..'

Then lets stop the madess just come lay with me.

Truth be told. Im waving my flag before It goes bad.

Because we made it this far for better or worst..

I want to feel it even it hurts.

If I got to cry to get to the other side. Lets go cause we go survive...OOOOHHHH!!!

We stay on the front lines. But we're still here after the bomb drops.

We go so hard.

We lose control.

The fire stops then we explode.

When the smoke clears we dry our tears

ONLY IN LOVE AND WAR "

I sing along word for word. This is my shit and this is exactly how im feeling. Love and war..

But I'm the down ass chick I claim to be.

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Mya

" So why don't you get to be around yo kid? " I ask him.

" Don't get me wrong I ain't no dead beat dad I love my seed with everything in me. If I could have my son I would without a doubt. Its his evil as mother. She won't let me near so I don't get to see him as much. Shit I try trust me. I even kidnap my own kid once and that wasn't good just got me locked up. She doesn't care about him. I pay 800 dollars a damn month and im sure none goes on him. Ain't shit that I can do " He says. I looked at him. That was sad.