The Song of Darkness

Walls

EMMA SWAN

I haven't talked to Hook in two weeks. It's just been so busy. I get to the station early and let Lottie out of her cell. "You have a doctors appointment. Change your clothes." I hand her an outfit and walk her to the bathroom. Once she's done I cuff her and take her to the car. I should tell Hook about this appointment.

I call him. I really didn't want to have to. "Killian, hi. Lottie has an appointment today."

"Oh ok thanks for telling me. Is it an appointment for her or the baby?"

"The baby. They're doing a sonogram."

"A what?"

"Pictures of the baby."

"Ok thank you, I'll be there."

I hang up without another word. She's looking at herself in the mirror. "You look disgusting princess don't worry." I drag her to the car before she can say anything. "Oh and I learned a new trick!" I use my magic to silence her so she can't speak at all. She tries screaming but its silent. "Much much better." She grabs my head and pushes it into the steering wheel.

I use the spell I learned to knock her out. Fuck she's annoying. I drive to the doctor and walk her in. Killians here with Layla. I walk Lottie into the room and leave her and Hook be. This is their business. I sit with Layla.

"Hey Layla."

"Hi." She sits at the coffee table and colors. She's actually drawing.

"What's that?"

She doesn't answer and lays her head on the table. Ok then. I'll just sit and wait. They come out and Hooks holding the pictures. I grab Lottie's arm and take her to the other part of the hospital. The mental hospital. I take her to a cell.

"Welcome to your new home."

I let her speak. "You're insane if you think this will help your relationship with Killian."

"I don't. It'll give me less to worry about." I take her voice again and lock the door behind me. "No one sees her except me."

"Yes maam." I go back up and Hook and Layla are gone. I go back to the station. Its quiet in here now. I leave and go to Grannys to get coffee. I go back to the apartment and no one is here. I think David and Mary Margret are having a date day.

Good. Maybe I can go get Henry. Or not... I could just go to bed. It's 10:00 AM. I can't just sleep all day. I mean I could. Thats what I normally do. My phone rings. Ugh what now?

"Hello, Emma Swan."

"Emma love are you alright?

"Oh Killian hello, yes I'm fine. What's up?"

He sighs. "I haven't talked to you hardly at all since our date."

"I know I'm sorry. Its been busy."

"You're not avoiding me?"

"No not at all." I lie.

"Okay love. I'll see you later then."

"See me later? For what?"

"I just meant around love."

"Oh right, see you later." I hang up and throw myself onto my bed. I'm so exhausted. Maybe I should just go back to Boston. No I can't. I won't leave Henry. There's someone knocking at the apartment. I groan and go open the door. Neal. No! No no no! I slam the door.

"Emma!" He knocks on it again. "Emma please I just wanna talk."
I take a deep breath and open it.

"You have two minutes."

He steps in. "I just want to get to know Henry. That's the only reason I'm here. I'm not trying to date you or make amends. You can hate me forever but I'm going to be in my sons life."

"Fine. If he wants that."

"Thank you."

"He's not here, he's with Regina. She won't let you have him."

He nods and walks out still. I just lean against the back of the door and slide down it. I'm mentally exhausted and I don't know how to handle anything. I just need to lay in bed for a few days and not talk to anyone. I go lay in bed. Hopefully I'll wake up when everything's normal again.

I shut my phone off and get under the blanket.

***

I wake up fully, I don't know how long later, to David sitting next to my bed. It's dark. He's just sitting there with a candle.

"Why are you watching me sleep? Creep."

"I'm not." He blows the candle out. "You were crying in your sleep. I just wanted to make sure you were okay."

"Oh well... thank you."

He leans over and kisses my forehead. "Sorry for disturbing you." It's nice having someone who cares like that.

"You didn't. I should get up anyway."

"Hook called a couple times."

"He did? Why?"

David shrugs. "He's worried."

"Worried about what?"

He laughs. "You." Why would he be worried about me? "I'm gonna go back to bed for a bit, eat something."

"Ok."

He goes back to his bed and I just try to go back to sleep. I wonder what Hook's doing. I could call. He's probably asleep like everyone else. I kinda miss him.

I can't call him though. And as much as I want to if I go any further with him I'll ruin it. I should just break it off and let him find someone else. That seems like the least painful way to do this.