Cataclysm [jujutsu kaisen fanfic]

chapter fifty

i opened my eyes, and all i saw was blood. 

the blood was pooling around me, and the sky was blanketed with stars that did nothing but watch me lose everything in my life. 

i continued to drown in the sea of blood, the blood of my husband's and my son's. a stream of blood came out of my eyes instead of tears. no one will ever hear me as the liquid drowned me. 

i looked to my side to only see my lifeless husband, Sukuna, bleeding to death. i know that if he could, he would fight them and fend the soldiers off me. 

right.. Sukuna?

my eyes widened, and glistened with tears when his face came to life, and was replaced with the one i had seen in that forest, the meeting i had yearned for after decades of darkness. 

i slowly raised my body, sitting upright in the dark room without any lights. it has been weeks after that night Koji took me without consent, and since then the nightmare of that night kept coming. i had not slept properly and all i wanted was someone to hold me so tight, telling me it would be alright. 

not when i know no one in this hellhole. the bastards, the devil of a husband, the actual devil that probably watches everything unfold.

i suddenly felt a presence next to me, i gasped when the devil appeared before me, his ashen skin and red eyes always made me tremble in fear. what an evil-looking befitting for someone capable of creating this hellhole.

he slowly crouched down next to me, peeking to see my face while i tried my best not to look at him, out of fear. 

"i have to be gone for a month. don't do anything stupid, okay?"

my eyes widened at his words. he will be gone for a month? what does that mean? if it is true he was about to go away, that means i was correct. he had been watching every move i did. 

i almost forgot how to breathe when i felt him tugging my stray hair behind my ear. 

"you should listen to your husband... or not. it was your punishment anyway.. for meeting the cursed spirit."

his words made me want to scream. if it is true what he said, that means i am truly in his grasp. nothing i do can miss his knowledge and i will forever be his puppet. 

he wanted this to happen.

once he was gone, and Koji went out of town for a meeting, i just ran out of the estate. the night was dark out, and my feet brought me to the forest i last met Sukuna.

my husband... my Sukuna.. 

the scratches on my arms and face did not bother me. the only thing on my mind was only Sukuna. 

my legs gave away as soon as i found the same place i last saw him, the last time he made such a painful look upon my rejection. i did not mean to be scared of him. however he was, he will always be the Sukuna i fell in love with.

"Sukuna... Sukuna..!"

i cried, i screamed his name hoping he could hear me. 

"Sukuna..! Sukuna..!!" 

at this point, i cried out all my feelings, begging for him to come to cradle me in his strong arms to soothe me. 

and sure enough, i felt strong arms enveloped me into them without hesitation. it was like they were made for me, following every contour of my body, securing me from any danger out there. 

my eyes continued to shut, letting out tears that had built up in me for years. 

all the time as he cradled me, holding me so tight he did not want to let go. we were quiet in each other arms. i know he needed this as much as i needed it. the way his chest shuddered when he had me in his arms and calmed down as soon as he had me secured, i knew i was also his safe place, as we always were for each other.

after a while, i felt his hand brushing against my hair, pushing the hair out of my face. i opened my eyes to see him, the man i loved with all my heart. 

"Sukuna.. i don't want to live like this anymore.."

i could feel his muscles flexing on me. despite his soft caress over my hair, i knew he was itching to know the reason.

"like what, Tomoe? didn't you love where you are now?"

i almost sobbed at his words, the misunderstanding he had against me for years that made him bore hatred against me. i shook my head.

"no.. never.."

his holds tightened. 

"why? what did that bastard Zenin did to you?" 

my hands clutched onto his kimono. 

"i.. i didn't want any of his children.." 

i could feel him shifting eagerly. his breathing grew unease against me and i looked up to his face. veins popping on his temple.

"I'll fucking kill him. I'll kill him for real!"

i held his face. i never saw this kind of anger from him. before, he was cool and calm. he was strong, but he never let anger control him. but now, he's different. however, as soon as his eyes fell on mine, his face changed, brows furrowed in sadness as he held my face in his hand.

"fuck.. i can't do it now.. they're strong, Tomoe. him, the children he had with you, they became strong because-" his face changed again as if something connected in his mind. i gazed at him confused.

"don't you know?" 

"what..? what do i not know?"

he held my shoulders and pushed me apart from him. his grip was so strong that i winced in pain. but, he made me look back into his eyes. the eyes that held mine with love before turned into a stranger.

"who the hell are you?"