"Marlboro lights, one snowbear" ani ko sa cashier ng 7/11.
2 weeks passed since the incident happened, yet I still couldn't sleep properly because of that. I even had to go to 7/11 at 2 am just so I could clear my mind.
Hindi na ako sumama sakanya na kausapin ang principal dahil baka sumama lang ang loob ko.
Hindi ko alam pero hindi sya nasuspend sa ginawa nya. Ang nasuspend ay 'yong si Cliton. What? He used his power so he could get away with his own mistakes? Ganyan ba talaga sya ka gago pag dating sa bakla?
I don't usually smoke, the feeling is just too heavy I couldn't find anything to help me lessen the weight.
I brushed my hair backward as I puffed my cigarette, allowing it to travel down my lungs and escape through my nose.
I sighed deeply.
The thought of not having a chance with Gio hunts me for real. I'm here locking up my feelings in a case making sure to swallow the key so no one would know what's inside. Then loving him more than a friend and I couldn't even express that properly.
I know he'll immediately cut me off the second I confess. Isusumpa ako non. Probably cut everything that would pull us back together—he will find an ink that will mark hatred in his heart towards me forever.
He would hate me deep inside his bones; he would even bury me if he could. I know him.
And it hurts, so fucking much to know that. It hurts that I know the answer even without asking him personally.
I watched the small rocks on the floor get blown away by the wind. I felt someone's presence beside me without checking who it is.
"Lighter?" It's a man. Kita nang nag sesenti yung tao mag tatanong kapa talaga ng lighter? Ako lang ba ang tao dito?!
Tumingala ako para tignan ang paligid kung may tao ba, oo nga ako lang.
Huminga ako nang malalim at kinuha ang lighter sa bulsa ng sweatpants ko, binato kung sino man ang nasa gilid ko. I was secretly amazed when he effortlessly caught the lighter.
"It's my first time seeing you here.." aniya. Ang ingay.
I nodded to at least give some respect. But it's enough to show him I'm not interested in talking further.
"Mm" He offered my lighter na naka bukas. Bobo ba 'to?
Nanghingi ng lighter tapos iooffer sakin?
Irritated, I faced him. Mas matangkad ah, 6'3? Akala ko kasing laki ko. Okay, Vincent. Chill. Wag kang tanga six plot kalang.
"What?" I asked bitterly.
He scoffed, wow.
"A lighter for your freezing heart. Ang lalim nang iniisip huh?" His conyo voice's too obvious.
Umiling ako. Wag mo na ako bigyan ng lighter, nag iinit na ang ulo ko sayo.
"What do you want?"
He blew the smoke and smirked, "My spot"
Hindi ko alam kung sa iniisip ko lang ba 'to pero ang bilis uminit ng ulo ko. Tulad nito, sinabi lang na spot nya 'to nabwbwisit na agad ako. Pero bakit ba kase? Pwede naman sa iba nalang sya tumambay at mag yosi!
I scoffed, "You have your name on it?" I puffed my cigarette waiting for whatever his response was. Ba't ako mahihiya tumayo rito?
He casually gestured his head on the floor where I looked down and saw.. what the fuck.
A name.. 'Property of Akiro Lee Lopez'
Oh ano Naman?
"Call me Kiro," he says. Puffing his cigarette without looking at me.
