BET MY HEART || taejin

23. The flaws of gravity

the entire ride back home was quiet regardless of all the consoling and reassuring things taehyung wanted to tell seokjin, he chose not to say anything right now, truly not understanding where to begin and how to go about it

he glances at seokjin whenever he gets a chance and he can feel how terrified he looks, the way his entire face is red and how he was struggling to keep his shaking body in a composed state

this was all new to him, it would be for anyone

this was only their first day together and this was definitely not how it was supposed to go. this is the first impression that seokjin got of staying with taehyung and taehyung slaps himself internally for giving in to seokjin's demands and allowing him tag along

yoongi and jungkook are going to get an earful tomorrow for narrating their pity tales to him about not having time for their stupid boyfriends which was one of the main reasons seokjin wanted to go with him and relieve them from their duties

now as seokjin sped away from him after getting out of the car, taehyung did not want to bother him by chasing him, he knew he'll come around, he needs time to load and process the overwhelming information

what happened at the ball and everything that he heard was plenty for him to process, he needs time and taehyung hates how he cant give him that, because he himself had only one month with him and as selfish as it sounds, he cannot allow seokjin to shut down from him

the thought sent a pang of desperation through him. he needed seokjin to understand, to open up, and to be present in their limited time together but he considers himself as the sole person to be blamed for everything that happened and he was going to take responsibility for it

taehyung's eyes followed seokjin's retreating figure, his heart heavy with concern as he watched him go upstairs to their shared room. seokjin's swift departure without a glance hurt him more than he cared to admit and taehyung restrained the urge to follow him

seokjin rushed upstairs knowing his tears were threatening to flow down like a dam, he just shuts the door behind him, not even caring to lock it

he collapsed onto the bed, burying his face in the pillows, the line of events of the day scared him to no end - the creepy encounter with Wi hajun, the shocking revelation he heard from under the desk, taehyung's dad along with taehyung saving the day, taehyung's evident distrust after learning his own father had protected him and even the weight of his own gratitude burdened him

he felt lost, what's this mess after mess that he's getting himself into

is entangling into all this and risking his own safety for a former bully even worth it?

downstairs, taehyung's restraints began to fray, he yearned to comfort seokjin, to hold him but he was unsure how he was going to do it, this sort of situation isn't something that he sees everyday and he was wrong about calling himself a good shoulder to cry on, he's surely not someone who's skilled at comforting people, it just came to him naturally when he was around seokjin

he's unsure about what his next move should be, he just stood there hesitantly wondering if he should respect seokjin's privacy or just go pull him in a crushing hug, the talking can wait, he can show his heart through his actions

not going to spare anyone that lead us to this

not a single one will make it out alive

taehyung promised himself

but his primary concern now was seokjin, he'll deal with them later, in his own traditional way