love for a boy(friend) \\ taekook

3 ~ some tea

Jungkook doesn't want to date, he never had a girlfriend before and usually ends up being close friend of the girls he hooks up with. 

The last time he had anything sort of serious was when he was 18 and tried to 'date' his late-childhood friend after she confessed her feelings to him. As much as he loved her, it wasn't a romantic love, and they ended up as friends with benefits until one day she decided it needs to stop, telling him she is in love with him and can't do this anymore. 

It was heartbreaking, sure, to lose your friend of more than 7 years but there was nothing he could do about it, he wont date anyone that he doesn't have romantic feelings for, and for the 22 years he lived on this earth that had never happened to him, not even once.

Jungkook slept around, mostly had one night stands or sort of like the thing he has with Gemma. Wait, what does he actually have with Gemma? he is not sure. They never really called it friends with benefits, but they were for sure friends, and there were for sure benefits involved. Gemma doesn't seem like she wants more, even though she always touches him in public, maybe trying to make their status known to others, but shouldn't they know what their status is first themselves?

After last night, they ended up having sex only once since both were a bit tired from the long day they had, and since they had no classes today they both stayed in sleeping late this morning. It was weird, but for some reason Jungkook couldn't finish. it took him some time to get hard, only after pumping himself a bit after the little foreplay he had with Gemma on the couch, and when they moved to the bedroom it took about 20-30 minutes for him to finally be ready for her. it never happened to him before, but he chose to blame the alcohol and not think about it for too much.

'Morning Oppa'

'Morning Gem' Jungkook turned to his left to see Gemma topless next to him. She pulls him for a kiss but he moves his mouth fast 'morning breath' he says and puts a hand on her lips. She frowns but chooses to tease, licking his palm as they both start laughing. They continue laying in bed, facing each other but not touching, each of them in their own thoughts.

'Hey so... there's this one guy I matched on Tinder with before we met, and he found me on instagram and texted me that he is in Seoul this weekend and if we can meet for drinks. what do you think? should I say yes?' Gemma suddenly asked, a bit nervous for some reason.

'Yes definitely, sounds nice and the weather would be good so you can hang out outside, dont go to his hotel, maybe he's a creep' Jungkook said jokingly but kinda serious. He cares for Gemma, and meeting strangers from apps is risky. 

'awww are you worried that I'll sleep with him if he invites me to his hotel?' she teased, but secretly wanted him to say yes, even though deep down she knew... he doesn't see her like that.

'of course' he winked, saying sarcastically.

silence

more silence

why is she not saying anything? did she think I was serious? I dont want her to think im obsessed with her, oh shit

'Im kidding, yeah?' Jungkook clarified. 'of course' she winked, mimicking him. 

After a while they got up and got ready for the day, quickly eating improvised breakfast and heading out together, to their separate ways.

Gemma needed to go back home and babysit her younger sister and Jungkook had no plans in particular, he usually spends his days off from school walking around Seoul, every time finding new unique spots he takes mental note of to come back and draw at some point, but he never does for some reason.

Its not like Jungkook was lazy, not at all, he just had so many places he wanted to go back to and draw, but every time he was about to, he got uninspired, didnt even know where to go and what he wants to achieve. it was the same in school, the entire class has a project they have to work on this semester, a sculpture to represent themselves somehow. it can be in any way they want, but it has to be clear and show who they are as people. Jungkook knew himself pretty well, but once again, he didnt have inspiration or knew how to approach this project, finding himself going to school just to stare at the clay and the other materials while others already made some progress. but that's not a problem for today, no, today he feels like walking around, enjoying the nice weather and head to no where in particular.