love for a boy(friend) \\ taekook

11 ~ the boy is mine

some things to keep in mind before reading this chapter: 

~ a very specific scene from this chapter (I think you will get it later) was the reason I started this entire ff, I listened to this song and just kinda imagined this scene with jk and v, so I hope you would respect it even if you didnt enjoy the chapter or the scene

~ I also want them to get together alreadyyyy but I also want to build the story in a way that makes sense to me and stays true to their characteristics and to reality of how I see romantic relationships develop

~ contains a moment that will for sure cause some 2nd hand embarrassment but I find it cute, so dont shame please 🙏

SMUT IS COMING, BUT NOT IN THIS CHAPTER. wait for the fire emoji ..... I promise we are getting there

enjoy !

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Jungkook is a calm person. He never found himself getting heated or mad over things. most of the things were always solved with a nod and agreement from his side, since nothing really bothered him that much before. especially when it comes to jealousy. since.... well... he never experienced it before.

The term wasn't unfamiliar to him. he watched too many kdramas and talked to many friends who he needed to share with him. so he could always kinda imagine what jealousy feels like. Jungkook always associated jealousy with insecurity, so he never thought he would have to worry about it - since he is such a secure person, knows himself and knows his boundaries and to respect others' boundaries. 

'I cant help but compare myself to the other guy. The way she looks at him when he made her laugh— he is so different from me. he is so bold and sure of himself and I cant even be confident enough to ask her where we stand'

'whenever im with her I feel like she's only half present and half somewhere else, like she doesn't really need me. im scared one day she would leave me for someone else. everytime she's on her phone texting I cant help but wonder if its another guy, if she already got bored of me'. 

those were only a few examples of his friends' struggles. 

comparison. that repetitive thing was always in those conversations and lately that is something he noticed he himself started doing since he met Taehyung.

who made his smile wider, me or the random customer? who did he touch more, me or Jimin? is the way he touches him the same as he does to me, with the same intentions? Would I make him moan louder than the guy at the party did? would he touch my hair with the same aggression? 

those kind of thoughts of comparing himself to others around the older made his stomach twist painfully. it felt like a weight was pressing down on him and he is hopeless to it, cant push it away and cant continue carrying the burden of this uneasiness in his stomach and chest any longer, sooner or later it will explode.

but Jungkook knew its not only that, there were other reasons for him to believe that he was starting to be jealous more and more with every innocent person who dared to look at the barista with the same thoughts as him. that happened earlier, when Kai was talking to them and the younger couldn't stop himself from grabbing the older's waist and pull him closer, like he needed to claim him, to make sure Kai knew who Taehyung belongs to. but he doesn't belong to Jungkook, not only that - they are nothing more than friends. 

Friends with this indescribable physical attraction, well at least from Jungkook's side.

He still doesn't know what exactly he wants to achieve or do, he just knows that he cant deal with this feeling anymore. Theres nothing he wants more than to get Taehyung's attention, to have the barista look at him the same way he looks at him. with the same lust and desire and with the same urgency to touch, to feel, to taste.