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◉36◉ Memories

Park Sunhee's POV

A knock on the door was heard, "come in" the door was slowly pushed open revealing a smily nurse with a tray of food in her hands,

She stepped in further, placing the tray on the small stand and closed the door gently, picking the small table up from the shelf beside my bed, she placed it infront of me and placed the tray of food on it,

"Ma'am, may I feed you?" She inquired in a sweet tone, "no, you may go" I ordered coldly, totally not in the mood of talking to anyone, "alright ma'am, I, um" she spoke up but hesitated as I glanced at her with a raised eyebrow,

Only to find her placing a small square like button on the shelf beside my bed, "this is a alarm bell that you can use to call any nurse" she informed as I eyed the specific object,

"Thank you" I thanked in a low mumble as she smiled in return, "no problem ma'am" she lastly murmured and bowed, marking her leave,

Once the door was closed I sighed, while staring at the food with a empty gaze, I couldn't help but wonder about the conversation I had with Dr.Kim a while ago,

Even though, I appeared to be certain and confident infront of Dr.Kim that the patient he was talking about with the same name as me, who supposedly was admitted to his hospital 5 months ago is definitely me,

I doubt its me though, I've never been admitted to the hospital, I've beared such tortures that no one could ever imagine, not even my long lost best friend Yeri knows about it, no one in the world, except for the who obeyed the order, who gave the order, and lastly, me,

Or..maybe that's just what I thought

I'll still patiently wait for the response from the doctors side, even though, deep down I want my assumption to turn out true, I just don't want those boys to turn out liars

Yet I also don't want it to be true, how could admitted to the hospital when I've never been ever since I was born?
It just doesn't make sense,

If the younger me can bear every abuse and torture then why not the older me?

Its frustrating and disappointing,
How could be I be so weak?
In my point of view,

I'm the strongest person I've ever seen, I envy myself for being so strong and brave, I am the motivation to myself, I am that 'good example' for myself, then how?

Most people might see me as a arrogant and selfish person who tries to bring weak or sensitive people down but they'll never understand it from my point of view, once a person gets used to a certain thing, its normal for them, but not for someone who's new to it, and most people aren't able to get the point,

Therefore, whatever the response will be, at some point I'll be happy and sad at the same time for certain reasons,

"You should eat" a familiar voice pulled me out of my thoughts as I glanced at the certain person, revealing the bambi eyes guy,

Continuing to stare ahead, "I'm not hungry" I stated nonchalantly, I heard him sigh as he sat on the edge of the bed infront of me, "you should eat, its not good for you if you don't" he advised,