Stay With You // Conrad Fisher

Chapter 20

Maggie's p.o.v. 

       The next few days were like a fever dream. I had been spending nights with Conrad. We seemed to be spending the whole day together. 

      As I laid in my bed while I waited for Conrad to text me when he got out of class I started to feel self conscious. What if he was getting sick of me? I am probably in my own head about it...but I can't help but feel a little bit off. 

       I was scrolling through TikTok when I got a text. 

Conrad: 

My class is over. I promised Gavin I'd help him with something. I'll come to your room after. 

I know he said he had to help Gavin with something but it felt like he was avoiding me. I texted back anyways. 

Me: 

sounds good! 

       I decided to roll over and take a nap while I waited for however long until Conrad came over. 

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     I was woken up from a knock at my door. I looked at the time on my phone and I had been asleep for about two hours. I assumed it was Conrad. I made my way to the door and opened it and to no surprise it was Conrad. 

       "hey" I said to him as I moved out of the way so he could come into my room. 

      "hi" he said back as he made his way to my desk to put his bag down. Once he had his things settled he turned back around to give me a hug. 

       I don't know why but it felt weird. I didn't feel like myself. I did hug him back but I think he could sense something was off with me. 

     "Mags what's wrong?" he asked pulling away from me but keeping his hands on my arms. 

     I tried to push past it and act like everything was okay, "It's nothing." as I pushed away from him even more. I feel myself self-sabotaging again. 

      "Talk to me." he pushed as I walked over to my bed and sat on the edge of it. 

       "I-I just don't...know." I said back while looking at my hands in my lap. 

        He came closer to me. "You don't know what?" 

        I looked up at him as he wasn't far away now and I could see the concern in his eyes. 

        "I don't know what's going on with...this." I said motioning between the small space between us. 

       He gave me a look I couldn't really decipher at this point. Maybe I am just not cut out for this. I always felt the need to be in control or no relationship at all and this relationship I never knew what was going to be happening. 

      "Maybe we should stop." I almost whisper. 

       Conrad reached for my hands as he moved even closer to me. "Maggie..." he started. 

       "I mean wouldn't it just be easier that way?" I interrupted him. 

        "Magnolia don't do this." he said looking so hurt. I've never heard him use my full name before. 

       "Why?" I asked hoping he could give me any reason at this point. Maybe I just wanted someone to fight for me. 

       He took a deep breath, "Look I know you're scared of commitment but tell me who isn't? Y-You think It would be easier to be alone but it's not. I can't sit here and pretend I want anyone else because I don't Maggie. I am so tired of being alone and you made me feel so...so many things...Mag I want to stay with you. I want to be with you." 

       Well damn. 

       I couldn't even fight at this point because no one has ever fought for me like that. Made me feel so wanted. 

      I took a second to look at his face. His eyes looked like he was pleading with me and they looked like they were going to start producing tears at any moment. 

     I couldn't say anything that was going to say what my heart wanted to say so I threw my arms around his neck and kissed him. I could tell that he was surprised at my actions but then I soon felt him melt into the kiss. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer to him. I felt myself melt into the kiss even more at his actions. I slid one of my hands into his hair and rested it there. 

      After a moment I pulled away slightly, "I'm so sorry Connie, I didn't want to hurt you." I said as I looked into his eyes. 

     "Don't be baby, everything is okay." he said before reconnecting our lips. 

      We shared the moment with each other in pure bliss. Once he pulled away he started " I know you said you don't know what this is and I didn't either, but I want to be with you." 

     "like your girlfriend?" I asked him. 

     "Yes, will you Magnolia do me the honor of being my girlfriend?" he asked while looking into my eyes. 

      "Nothing else would make me happier." I say before reconnecting our lips. 

      This was it. Conrad Fisher was my boyfriend. I was Conrad Fishers girlfriend.