azul es el color más cálido.

Lo que no ves

Do you know what I also loved so much about you? Our innocence, your innocence. The way we used to talk at late hours at night without needing to bring any morbid topic on the table, even though we used to send each other gifs and make up stories in our minds about the things that we would like to be happening at the moment, like cuddling in bed or tickling each other, even kiss each other, in our imagination, but it genuinely felt so pure, without malice. Like two kids loving each other sincerely. And of course I long for your touch, but with you it's different. I fantazise about feeling your hands next to mine, are they cold or are they as warm as your words? Does your eyes sparkle when you talk about something you love? Its your laugh contagious and quirky? Or do you have a crocked tooth that you always try to hide when you smile? I'd like to see how you curve your lips when your'e distracted thinking on your own or how your face gets red when something overwhelms you. 

Sometimes I think about your silly jokes and the weird faces that you make, sometimes I imagine that you're in front of me and we both get so nervous that we cannot help but to look away. It is such a refreshing feeling, something rare, almost non existent, to find this type of love in a world that is so rotten, honestly makes me feel like myself again, and I know I shouldn't and I know I can be screwed, but I fantasize so much about this day, when I finally meet you, I think I'm not even prepared for the outcome, maybe my heart stop beating this same day, maybe I'm not prepared cause I know I'd be crying like a baby to be living one of the most happy days of my life.

 I'll hold on to this moment and I'll bleed my heart out if I need to. But If something I'm sure is that if we're lucky enough to have this, if we are the luckiest people on earth, rest assured. I will never, ever let it go.