Getting adopted by our idols

Chapter 15

"Lucy come back please don't do this to me" I was having a nightmare. Lucy. She is- was my best friend. She committed suicide three months before we went to warped. I took the hardest blow. She was the smallest one. Short, long hair, no piercings, flat stomach, she was the nicest one of us. "Please Lucy. Don't leave us. Don't leave me. You have so much to live for. Please we will be here every step of the way" she nodded. "Okay" is all she said. I smiled. I brought her to my bed to keep her safe from her demons she had in her head. Little did I know that after I went to bed she decided to go on with hanging herself. I woke up without her next to me. I panicked. I looked down on the floor and saw blood. I screamed my lungs out as I looked up. The guys and Jazmine came in. They all looked shocked and upset. I was crying my eyes out. Jazmine was hugging me. Sebastian and Adrian were trying to get her down. The lady came in and saw the scene. she called the cops right away. I explained everything crying. That next night I tried to do the same but failed miserably. When were her demons stronger then her will? Why didn't I notice before? Why didn't I try to help her? Why? Why? Was all that was going on in my head. "Ana. Ana. Ana please wake up" I felt someone shaking me. I opened my eyes and screamed Lucy's name. My sight got blurry quickly. "Wha- what happened? I asked in between crying. "Nightmare" it sounded like Ashley's voice. "Dad?" "Yea?" I sighed. "Nothing." "Whos this Lucy?" I looked at him sadly and he quickly added "-if I may know." I explained to him what happened. I was reliving her death in my sleep. Such a horrible feeling I thought to myself. I checked the date and time on my phone. 4:00 am. The date July 5th. Of course. Today three months ago we found her dead. I texted the guys and Jazmine. "Hey. Did y'all dream about. Uh Lucy..?"
I got a reply seconds after from Jazmine.
"Yea. Vic woke me up. Three months huh.."
Yea. Well night.."
"Night."
Sebastian answered next.
"Yea just woke up from my nightmare."
"I miss her. A lot."
"So do I. But night."
"Night."
Adrian was the last one to answer about two minutes afterwards.
"Yea. I was reliving it. I'm guessing you were too but your must've been 100x worse since you know.."
"Yea.. I miss her. She was like my little sis. I saved her life so many times yet I failed saving her three months ago.."
"Hey. Don't blame yourself. At least you tried to stop her. It wasn't your fault."
"Kay. Night."
"Don't do anything stupid to yourself alright?"
"OK."
I went back to my bunk and laid there staring at the wall. I slowly nodded off to bed. It was around 4:15 am when I went back to bed.