It's been three days since that rather eventful New Years party and I still can't stop thinking about it. I haven't been able to sleep very well since, I just keep reliving that night and absorbing everything he confessed. He said he's going to wait for me and honestly I don't know how I feel about it; I'll admit it's a sweet gesture but I doubt he'll keep it. Four months is a really long time and there's always the possibility that either of us will find someone new. I can't stand the thought of Liam finding someone new, someone prettier than me and famous who everyone loves. There's a small part of my heart that is so blindly in love with him that it would want me to call him right now and forgive him for everything but there's no way the rest of my heart would let that happen. Ugh, I need to stop thinking about this.
Today's the day I'm leaving for the Little Mix tour and I can't even begin to say how excited I am! We're going all over the UK and Europe and their first show is in two days so there's still a lot of traveling and preparation to be done. I've just finished zipping my suitcase and rolling it into the living room when Diana stands up from the couch.
"I'm seriously going to miss you so much! And I'm so jealous that you get to be with Little Mix everyday!" she gushes as she gives me a tight hug.
"I'm going to miss you too! And you better come to one of the shows and I'll try to sneak you backstage!" I reply happily. "By the way, thanks for letting me stay here...I'm sorry if I was an emotional bother--"
"Babe don't say that! I seriously owe you, remember? Plus it was lots of fun! I would offer you to move back in when tour is over but I know you'll be back with Liam by then." she smirks confidently. I roll my eyes, I highly doubt that will happen.
"Oh whatever! Just keep that room vacant for me because that won't happen." I laugh on the outside but I actually mean it on the inside. I glance out the window to see my cab is here so I give Diana another long goodbye hug and I part ways with her. It's weird that we were such close friends years ago, and then we completely lost contact until a few months ago and now its like nothing's changed. I'm really going to miss her and she is the definition of a true friend.
I arrive at the address that Stella texted me, it's a building with a large parking lot with about three massive tour buses parked around each other. I pay my fare and get out with my suitcase and immediately see Stella.
"Hello Marielle! Are you ready?" she asks excitedly, with her clipboard in hand.
"Yes I'm so ready!" I reply with a big smile. I see the girls of Little Mix walking from around the corner to meet with us.
"Alright so Marielle, you'll be in bus number 2 with the rest of the crew." Stella reads from her clipboard.
"Wait, there's an extra bunk on our bus! Why don't you stay with us?" Perrie suggests. The rest of the girls smile and excitedly agree and on the inside I'm freaking out. Me on Little Mix's tour bus? I squeal internally but look over to Stella as calmly as possible.
"Oh, well I suppose that could work. Is that okay with you?" she double checks her clipboard and then turns to me. I nod frantically with a big smile on my face and the girls cheer and quickly lead me up the stairs of the tour bus to show me around. I'm ready to pinch myself, no way is this happening!
"And this is your bunk!" Jade says, pointing to the top bunk on the left. They've just given me a tour of the very large bus; in the front there's a lounge area connected to a small kitchen and if you keep walking down there's a door leading to a small bathroom, three bunks on each side of the wall, (four for the girls, one for Stella and one for me) and in the very back there's an even bigger lounge area with huge couches and a mini fridge surrounding the edges of the walls. This is honestly better than any flat I've lived in before, and I get to have such amazing and fun bunk mates!
"Alright ladies, we're about to head off! Its about a 2 and a half hour drive to Nottingham so you better get yourselves comfortable!" Stella calls out from the front of the bus. We all squeal with excitement, it's going to be like one huge sleepover on a tour bus!
It's been about an hour into the journey and the four girls and I are sitting in the back of the bus on the large couches just gossiping like girls our age do. I'm texting Caleb from the other bus and he's just going on about all the things we should do when we get to Nottingham when the girls all turn to me.
"So Marielle, what happened with you and Liam? Zayn kinda told me but he didn't really say everything." Perrie asks cautiously. I bite my lip, of course this was bound to come up eventually, only our closest friends know that we've broken up. I expected Liam to confirm it publicly but I think he's still on the hopes that we'll get back together.
"It's complicated..." I begin nervously, looking down at my lap.
"It always is." Jade says softly, putting her hand on my shoulder comfortingly. "You can always tell us and we won't tell anyone." she assures me and they all nod.
"Well...we broke up a few weeks ago because he did something really bad and...I don't know, he's trying to win me back or something but I don't know if I can trust him again." I confess. They all look at me with understanding expressions, Jesy nodding her head and Jade taking her hand in mine comfortingly.
"Wow I'm so sorry, love. I honestly thought you guys were perfect for each other." Perrie replies, pouting her lip.
I shrug my shoulders and lean over to my side to look out the window. Yeah, so did I.
