The flight was only about an hour and a half, which didn't leave much time for sleep so I used to flight time to talk to Caleb and go on Twitter. I briefly told him what just happened between Ryan and I and he was in shock at first but then gave me the 'I-told-you-so' look. Twitter was fairly boring as well so I just turned to watch my view from the window. It was dark so the only things I could see were the little dotted lights at the land below us and the flashing lights on the plane's wing.
My mind is instantly flooding with thoughts about Liam. Was it because of him that I didn't feel a spark with Ryan? He was the first person who told me they loved me and actually meant it...it's things like that that can keep your heart attached forever. I wonder what he's doing right now, whether he has finally moved on from me and has already turned his flat into a bachelor pad full of booze and half-naked women. I try to get the thought of him out of my head but he always finds his way back. I'm the one who broke up with him, why is my heart still hung up? I feel like my heart is torn from so desperately wanting to move on from him and so desperately wanting him back.
We have finally gotten to the hotel in Glasgow and I still can't believe that I'm in Scotland! Even though I have a few Scottish friends I'll never get tired of hearing a Scottish accent, it's amazing. The crew is split up into four people per hotel room and for me it's Erica and myself along with two of the female back-up dancers, Karli and Annette. Caleb is in a room with Ryan so that's going to be considerably awkward, can't wait to hear that story. The four of us settle into our room and although Erica and I don't know Karli and Annette very well we are still going to be nice and friendly. I've dressed them, seen them dance on stage and I think they're incredible dancers, I've just never really talked to them before.
"Hey, so since we have another day off tomorrow a bunch of us were going to rent Vespa's and tour around the city. You guys wanna come with?" Annette asks as we all settle into our beds after an hour of random chatter. Erica and I exchange glances.
"Yeah, that sounds awesome! Count us in!" I beam. I've never ridden a Vespa before and I've never explored Glasgow so this should be interesting.
"I call the red one!" I yell excitedly as I skip over to the row of Vespa's. This rendezvous consists of me, Karli, Annette, Erica, Caleb, Ryan (awkward), and a 2 other dancers named Derek and Will. It's a beautiful afternoon in Glasgow and it obviously looks a lot better than last night now that I can see everything in the daylight. Little Mix have promotion and interviews today and the next show of the DNA Tour isn't until tomorrow so we're all free to do whatever we want. We all claim our scooters and put our helmets on as the trainer explains how to use them and the safety precautions we are supposed to take. After that we're all ready to go.
I start the engine and I smile as I let it purr for a few moments before accelerating forward and pretty soon we're all riding our Vespa's down the streets of Glasgow like a badass biker gang. I look to my left to see Caleb smiling and laughing on his blue Vespa and Erica a few meters in front of me doing the same. I try to focus on my driving while also trying to take in the exquisite scenery around me. The crisp air is flowing through my hair as we make a turn towards the countryside. Here the streets became dirt roads and the buildings turned into trees and hills, it's like I was driving through a travel catalogue; everything is so beautiful and still just like it would look like in a picture. In this moment, all of my worries seem to vanish and my mind, body and soul are happy and at peace.
"MARI WATCH OUT!" I vaguely hear a voice scream before everything blurs into darkness.
