"I can't believe him! Who the hell does he think he is?! He's the one who cheats on me and now he's trying to make ME feel guilty!" I spit angrily to Erica and Caleb as I pace back and forth across the hotel room. I can't sleep after tonight's incident with Liam and the more I think about it the angrier I get.
"Babe, calm down. Breathe." Caleb stops me and grips my shoulders to keep me still. I take a deep breath and exhale, letting my tense muscles relax. "Okay...so let me ask you something." he sits at the foot of the bed and instructs me to sit next to him with Erica sitting on the chair across from us observing it all. "Do you still love him?" he asks, raising an eyebrow.
"...yeah. I mean of course I still do, its only been like a month and a half since we broke up. You can't just fall out of love with someone that fast." I state softly.
"So if you love him why can't you just forgive him and move past it?" Erica interjects quietly. I feel like I'm in therapy right now. I sigh as I try to formulate an answer.
"I have no idea. There's times where he's amazing, sweet, gentle and I love him so much and then there's time where he acts like a complete douche, like he has to be in charge and always right. Whatever I do is wrong and he's always right. And when we argue it literally turns into World War Three. I just...I don't know." I let myself fall back onto the bed in defeat, covering my face with my hands and groaning.
"You need to give yourself a break from thinking about this all the time. You need something to take your mind off of him for awhile and then later on you can see if your life is better with or without him." Erica states. "Do something to change your life."
"Change, change your life! Take it all! TAKE IT ALL!" Caleb sings out the lyrics to the very band we're on tour for and we all laugh briefly at the comic relief Caleb has brought to the very serious conversation, we can always count on him for that.
"Like what?" I ask, sitting back up from the bed. "This job was supposed to be that change...that distraction to stop thinking about him. But it's clearly not working."
"Maybe do something drastic with your appearance! Like a tattoo or piercing--" Erica begins before Caleb cuts her off.
"Ooh let's dye your hair! A change in appearance will give you newfound confidence and will kind of close a chapter in your life so you can start a new one! Plus you don't know how long I've wanted to play with this luscious mane of hair!" Caleb shrieks out in excitement as he starts to play with the ends of my hair. I think about it for a moment, that's actually not a bad idea. I need something new in my life to make it more interesting without it being over the top...so why not change my hair color?
"Okay...why not?" I shrug my shoulders, smiling weakly.
"YAY! This is going to be awesome!" Erica cheers, clapping her hands together.
Liam's POV
Today has started with nothing but a pounding headache...thanks a lot, alcohol. But no amount of alcohol can make me forget what happened between Mari and I last night. I was so excited to see her and she looked so beautiful but everything was ruined because she keeps bringing up what happened. I've apologized to her a million times and I can't go back in time and change it...what does she expect me to do? Not to mention that other guy she has attached to her everywhere she goes...I can't believe I forgot to ask her about that! It made me sick to think that during my performance she was probably dancing along to it with some other guy. But I can't forget the way she looked at me from the audience; even though it was dark we still managed to make eye contact. She looked so happy and proud of me...that small piece of her that wants us to get back together was showing in that moment.
I roll over to my side to check the clock: 3:30 pm...oops, not exactly morning anymore. I climb out of bed and pop in some ibuprofen and water to help soothe this excruciating headache. I take a quick shower and change into another pair of sweatpants, I'm definitely not planning on going anywhere today so why not. I pull out my laptop and decide to go on Twitter to see Mari's page again, it's seriously my only way of being able to keep up with her life.
Yesterday at 7:05pm : BRIT AWARDS! I'm so excited! xx
Yesterday at 9:37pm: I'm so starstruck right now its unbelievable! What an incredible night!
Aw she's so cute. I wish we could've walked around together and I could've introduced her to all of her favorite celebrities, that would've made her so happy. I continue scrolling up to her most recent tweet which was just posted 2 hours ago.
This is what happens when you hang out with Little Mix for too long! xx www.instagram.com/po4bl2j4
I quickly click on the link and it's a picture of her smiling...wow she looks so stunning. But there's something different about her...she dyed her hair?! It's a little darker than her normal hair color on the top and it seems to fade and mix into a dark purplish red as it reaches the middle and ends of her hair. It's not a very conventional hair color but she can definitely pull it off and looks beautiful nonetheless. I scroll down the replies and everyone seems to love it. Well why wouldn't they? No matter what she looks breathtaking.
