Leehan's new life in a foreign country was a stark contrast to the vibrant days he had spent with Taesan. The bustling streets and unfamiliar faces only served to deepen the void within him. Each night, he lay awake, the silence of his room amplifying the turmoil in his heart.
The nights were the hardest. The darkness seemed to magnify his loneliness, and he found himself staring at the ceiling, his mind replaying memories of Taesan. The warmth of his touch, the sound of his laughter, and the softness of their kiss haunted him. He missed Taesan with an intensity that left him breathless, his heart aching with a longing he couldn't escape.
Silent cries echoed in the stillness of his room, his tears soaking the pillow as he struggled to come to terms with his feelings. Deep down, he knew he loved Taesan, but he had been too cowardly to accept it. The distance only made this realization more painful, a constant reminder of what he had lost.
During the day, Leehan threw himself into his studies, trying to distract himself from the emptiness inside. But no matter how busy he kept himself, the memories of Taesan were never far from his mind. He remembered the way Taesan had looked at him, the way he had made him feel safe and understood. The thought that he might never experience that again was almost too much to bear.
Taesan had tried to contact him, sending messages and making calls, but Leehan had blocked him from everywhere. He convinced himself it was for the best, that Taesan would be better off without him. He feared that his presence would only bring trouble, that Taesan's parents wouldn't approve or support their relationship. The thought of causing Taesan any pain was unbearable.
But with each passing day, the weight of his decision grew heavier. He knew Taesan would start to hate him, and the thought of losing his love and his friendship was a torment that gnawed at his soul. He felt trapped in a prison of his own making, the walls closing in as he struggled to find a way out.
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One night, as he lay in bed, the memories overwhelmed him. He could almost feel Taesan's presence beside him, the ghost of their kiss lingering on his lips. The tears came unbidden, his silent cries filling the room as he clutched his pillow, wishing for the comfort of Taesan's arms.
The internal screams were the worst. The constant battle between his heart and his fears left him exhausted, his mind a battlefield of conflicting emotions. He wanted to reach out, to tell Taesan how he felt, but the fear of rejection and the possibility of causing more pain held him back.
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Months passed, and the struggle continued. Leehan's heart ached with the weight of his unspoken love, the distance only serving to deepen his longing. He knew he had made a mistake, but he didn't know how to fix it. The fear of facing Taesan, of admitting his feelings and his cowardice, kept him paralyzed.
In the quiet moments, when the world seemed to stand still, Leehan allowed himself to dream. He imagined a future where he could be with Taesan, where they could face their fears together and build a life filled with love and understanding. But for now, those dreams remained just that—dreams.
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