Tell Me That You Love Me... Even if it's fake

Chapter - 10 A Blast To The Past

(EEE SO SORRY FOR THE DELAY I JUST STARTED HIGH SCHOOL)

No, I can't go out like this. I haven't avenged you yet Nee-san.

I see myself a few yards away coming towards me and I am currently bloody and lying down on the floor.

"Wake up" I hear her say

"Wake up, you can't die like this."

"Wake up! You good-for-nothing piece of shit! Wake up right NOW! NOW!

"It hurts..." I tell her in a raspy voice.

"Haven't I done enough... It's time for me to go home..."

She started approaching me and...

'KICK' she kicked me hard in the thigh

"You aren't going anywhere, wake up and be useful, You don't even deserve to exist so do something noteworthy in your insufferable life."

I can't respond.

"WAKE UP! YOU HAVEN'T GOTTEN YOUR REVENGE YET HAVE YOU? Well of course you haven't, why should anyone expect that much of you.

The words pierce my heart like a shuriken, I've always known that. I don't deserve to exist in the slightest, so why do I still do? I should've ended it all years ago when I couldn't bear the responsibility of a Hashira, stab myself in the stomach and call this life quits but I yet I persisted in living, and avenging my sister is the only thing I can think of.

She kicked me again, It hurts, it hurts so much. Why... Why do I experience pain and grief at every corner? Life just loves to torment me about everything, doesn't it....?

'KICK'

'PUNCH'

'KICK'

She wailed on me, every part of my body hurt but it could never compare to the emotional pain I felt through all these years. Maybe it's about time to end it all, after all, what do I have to gain through living the rest of my pathetic life?

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NO! I can't! I have to avenge her, there's nothing else to it... I tried to get up but she just punched me in the face, resulting in me almost toppling over but no, I must pull through!

I tackle her and now I'm on top. I savagely attack her like an animal. 'PUNCH' 'PUNCH' 'PUNCH'. I can't stop my rage, my fury, my pain...

By now she was knocked out cold, now that she was taken care of I took a moment to notice my surroundings. It was a vast amount of well... Nothingness so I guess I should trek in any given direction and hope for the best.

As I kept trekking a thought entered my mind, where am I? I know this is a vast plain in my consciousness but why? Is this what happens when someone passes on? If so then... Then Nee-san should also be here, right? Right??

I have been trekking this vast land of emptiness but I still don't see any change, does this mean I'm stuck here for all eternity? I sure hope not because that would be mind-numbing if I end up spending centuries in here.

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I've been in here for 4 days and I don't know if I can continue any longer, does this mean I'm stuck here for the rest of time itself? I can't accept that! Suddenly a wave of uneasiness consumed my mind and the only thing I remember is my breathing getting heavier and blacking out.