Crazy Affection 21+| KTH (complete)

Chapter 80

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[Y/n]

The thickness of the silence was deafening at some point. The loud beep sound was all I could hear in my ears, it felt awkward and suffocating.

I gulped and pulled myself away from him, but he grabbed my waist to keep me in my place with him still inside me.

I looked at him a little nervous but I didn't dare to utter a word. Those words just left my mouth out in a flaw and now I face the consequences. His face was stone hard and it made impossible for me to guess his thoughts. He has been always hard to read but never impossible but right now I'm not sure what he is even thinking about.

"I-I was just kidding." I tried to laugh it off and wished that the stern look on his face would disappear but it never did in fact he looked even more serious now that I backed off.

He leaned towards me, I wanted to moan when I felt a little friction as he moved but I held it in. "You're joking about something like that?" He questioned and somehow he looked a little hurt and annoyed at the same time.

I gulped, "No. I mean I-I am sorry." Was all I managed to utter under his intense gaze. He pushed me down to the mattress with his hands so now that I laid back looking deep into his eyes.

It was getting a little awkward because we were still in the same position with him inside me while I lost control of my own mind and blurred out something this serious.

He sighed and let himself lay on top of me, "why couldn't you just say yes?" He sounded disappointed that I had said no to my own question. Now he might think I was actually joking.

He took in a deep breath and I pushed himself off of me and stood by the bed avoiding my eyes. "I think you're are tired, have some rest. Good night." He mumbled as he grabbed his clothes.

I immediately stood up and grabbed his wrist. "No please don't go." I requested.

He looked down at me with a hard look on his face, "Y/n please, I can't do this forever. I know I have done awful things to you and I hate myself for it but please don't do this with me. Don't give me hopes if you can't forgive me. And no I'm not even asking you to forgive- I know what I have done is unforgivable but please this is my limit. Please don't give hopes." His voice cracked as he carried on. He turned his head away from me as he spoke.

"You have no idea how much I want to live a normal life with you but it never goes as I plan and I don't blame anyone but myself. But still there's only so much I can handle." I clearly heard a slow sob in his voice, he looked so tired of everything and yes I understand that my past didn't just hurt me but him as well maybe more than myself.

"Tae please let me explain-"

Before I could say another word he entered the bathroom visibly upset. I dropped myself on the edge of the bed, letting out a sigh I shut my eyes. I turned my head and looked at the time its was past 4 am in the morning so I decided to dress myself and get some sleep.

It's been 20 minutes or so had passed I laid on the bed and stared at ceiling as I heard the water continuously poring down inside the bathroom.

"A normal life you say." I muttered to myself as I recalled his words.

[Taehyung]

Wrapping the white towel around my waist I finally walked out of bathroom after what felt like days. The first thing I saw was Y/n sleeping peacefully, unknowingly I let a small smile escape.

I walked towards the closet and pulled on some sweats and joggers and turned to look at her again as she slept like a baby. I looked at the wall clock it's almost 5 am, I placed myself on the bed next to her slowly trying not to disturb her.