Crazy Affection 21+| KTH (complete)

Chapter 15

Chapter 15 " I hate you."

"My love for you is conditionally and ethereally deep."

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[Y/N]

Standing in the front yard, I looked at the orange sky. The evening was settling down and birds were flying to opposite direction going back to their nest. I turned to look at the orange sun slowly and calmly settled down under the softly and cold touch of the dusk. Few golden rays still visible, looking like a magic. I looked around, Yeontan was playing around with a ball, while I smiled at him.

I sighed heavily and sat down on the bench. "He looks happy." I mumbled to myself.

Whatever happened yesterday was still fresh in my head, repeatedly flashing. It made me really frustrated, I didn't want to hear any of that. I didn't wanted to hear that the guy I hate the most is in love with me, that he cares.
No matter what he feels, he forced me and that is not love but lust.

I'm just a way to fulfill his desires, his monstrous lust.

Even if he does love me, what does that change? He still has me locked up, away from my friends, my passion, my home.

He is in control of everything around me, he rules over me without my consent and if that is love, then I don't want that. I hate everything he does to me, I hate him for locking me up here, I hate that he forced me, I hate that he snatched my passion form me, I hate that he took away my freedom from me.

I closed my eyes leaning back on the wooden bench and sighed.

It's so hard, how long can I go on like this?

It was all pitch black; I know for the fact that my eyes were open, but I couldn't see anything, it was dark. I moved my hand in the void aimlessly, trying to get a hold of anything but nothing.

"Hello? Is anyone here?" I sounded out, struggling to breath properly.

But no reply....

I turned around when a beam of light appeared, I shut my eyes at the sudden brightness trying to adjust to it. Then I saw a figure of a boy standing opposite to me, his face wasn't visible but I know it's that boy again. The guy of my dreams, Tae.

"It's been long, isn't it?" He said, his voice was hoarse as if he has been crying for long, I stepped closer in hesitation trying to take a better look of his face. His face came in view and he had a smile on his face, but it didn't reach his eyes.

"Who are you?" I asked, I can't remember his name...it feels like it at the tip of my tongue but I can't sound ot out. He looked at me and smiled bitterly, hurt.

"It was so easy to erase me, wasn't it?" He asked, the bitterness in his voice reached me, tugging at my heart painfully.

"What is your name?" I asked trying to resurface the memories but a hammering pain hit the left side of my head, making me scream in pain, I held my head dropping on my knees, whimpering. He stood straight staring down at me with a straight face, like he didn't care.

"That pain in your head is me, the memories you lost is me. The voice in your head is me." He paused and smiled, "Remember me.... Y/n." He said, he then turned, his back facing me, he gave me a last glance and walked away in the blinding lights and soon disappeared. I looked at him, still crying in pain. It was unbearable....it hurts.