𝙄𝙣𝙩𝙤𝙭𝙞𝙘𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚

★the muse ★

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
Fucked up. I fucked up. Everything around me is fucked up. So fucked up. I did not think. I was not on my fucking mind, when I did that. How could I do that. And now again I have to be alone with him. "Give me the keys caser, you can go" his deep voice echoed as he stood there, close to me with his left hand in the pocket. His arm brushed against my side. Chills ran down my spine. I folded my arms against my chest and stood there watching him speak. His side profile is so perfect, so that he looks like a Greek statue. His face managed to remain without any emotions. The driver looked at me for the beat before handing over the keys and walking away. I gulped and looked away when I found him looking at me. He went towards the car and opened the front door before looking at me. His gaze was fixed on my eyes and nodded towards the door. My legs started shivering as I started walking towards the car. His warmth lingered even though he closed the door and moved to the other side. The door opened and he sat down before removing his coat and throwing it back, as if it was not worth thousands of dollars. I watched all his movements closely for no particular reason. He removed his cuffs and rolled his sleeves up making his tattooed veiny hand on display. His hands caressed the steering before gripping it hard. My heart started beating faster and my breath started ceasing. "It's a rude thing to stare, cara mia" he said chuckling. My gaze moved to his face. His white shirt fitted him perfectly. His biceps bulged and his chest busted out of the shirt as the first two buttons were opened. A small smirk hung on the corner of his lips. I turned my head so fast and looked outside the window. The air hit my face making my lips quiver but it felt good. He started the car with a rumble making my thighs shiver. There's nothing I love more than this. The range rover is a huge car, but with him inside it felt so small. He started racing on the streets. He drove with the left hand as his right hand was rested on the window. The cold air hit my face and the city started blurring making a small smile graze my lips. The car started slowing down making me look at him. His gaze never moved from the street. I looked out again. " So what's the matter?" He asked after releasing a deep breath. I fidgeted my fingers before looking at him and shook my head. He hummed and continued driving. There's one thing that I can't get out of my mind. Those lips against mine. The lights started blurring as he started driving as if he owned this goddamn place. The shivers spread my veins when his fingers brushed along the side of my thighs while switching gears. I gulped the feeling down and stuck my head out and closed my eyes. A boy with chestnut hair and brown eyes came into my view making me open my eyes. I can't let him down atleast not for the fucking sake of me. I gulped before turning my gaze at him. I turned my hand into a tight fist which might leave a mark later. I closed my eyes and took deep breaths and gathered the confidence I don't have. I tapped his arm making his eyes clash into mine. I retrieved the hand at the speed of light. His gaze bounced between my hand and me. "I wanna say something" i signed with the not so steady hands. His gaze moved back to the front view and started driving. Suddenly the car was parked in the middle of nowhere. I looked outside the window finding long trees all over the place. The sudden adrenaline rush made my thighs shiver. It's pretty dark and the only source of light is the car. The click sound made my head turn to the other side. There he sat lean on the seat with his hands on his thighs. And looking directly at me. Something is so intimate about having this sort of eye contact with him. His eyes pierced deep into me. Don't look at me like that. He looks at me like he wants to do things to me. Not a good one though. "You can stare at me all you want, but you can say what you came to say first" he said tilting his head. I cleared my throat and gulped down the feelings that were rising.
End it. End this. You need to end this. My heartbeat rose as i looked at him and signed. "I need divorce" making him Chuckle after a minute. I have never been this nervous in my whole life. I grabbed the phone to type it out for him. It seems like he can't understand. If he did he wouldn't have laughed. This is- "I saw what you said Ana and I chose to ignore it" he said before starting the car and grabbed the steering. My hands grabbed his wrist making him look at me. And for the first time he called me by my name. I signed again "I said I want divorce" he stared at me without saying anything. And that's what scared me the most. His silence. I could have handled anything but people's silence. Say something! Say something! But the next thing he did was all I left unpredicted. He pulled me harshly by my nape and clashed his lips on mine. A sting wrenched me away and brought me to reality. I grabbed his collar and pushed him away. The taste of blood exploded in my mouth. I can't say whose it is! All my struggles are just numb to him. He continued sucking my soul as if I'm not fighting here. I can't do anything ! There's nothing I can do. I closed my eyes. Weed. Smoke. Sweat. My eyes started tearing up. His other hand grabbed my thighs. I pushed him with everything I had. The moment he left me I pushed him and got down. You'll have no control over your life!!! The rain started pouring hard. And I don't know where I'm heading to. My hands started shivering and my legs are barely holding me up. I think I might throw up. I was drenched to the bones. I gulped down the rising emotions. In a flash of a moment I was in between the strong giant arms. My breathing never slowed down. "Where do you think you're going Cara mia?" His deep voice echoed in my ears. My hands turned into a fist. I pushed him wherever I could reach. His steel-like arms never seem to leave me. A grunt left me and i started struggling hard. Weed. Smoke. Sweat. His hand grabbed my waist and pulled me closer. A slap sound echoed in the empty rainy forest. My hand started shaking after i realised what the fuck did I just done. His face turned to the right. A moment passed still silence is what screamed. I bit my lips hardly. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. You're not supposed to do this Ana. The sound of the rain started assaulting my ears. His hair is wet and the water dripped from his hair ends. The white shirt is stuck to his body making it look more defined. His tattooed arm flexed making my feet etch. Run run run. I did not think twice before running into the deep forest. The rain blinded my vision. I don't know where I'm running. The thud of footsteps reached my ears making them Twitch. From my peripheral vision I can see he is close to me. So close. I started sprinting. So fast. A gasp escaped from me when I was dragged back by my hair. A groan left me when I was pushed against the tree. A rough bark came in contact with my back. His hand wrapped around my neck and choked it a bit. My hand grabbed his wrist and tried to push away. My chest moved heavily as I breathed harshly. I started tapping his chest as he started choking making my breath stop. His face came dangerously close and stopped right before a few inches. I gulped and looked at his eyes. Fuck. His eyes stared right into my soul. The water droplets dripped from his nose and settled in his lips.
"Worst move cara mia, you're not supposed to do that" is what he said before eating my face. The rain blinded me making it difficult to open my eyes and made me gasp for the air. His tongue was thrusting into my mouth and it started exploring. His hand grabbed my waist harshly making it burn. My body was so close to giving up. He showed no sign of leaving me. His other hand groped my ass and pulled me closer, making me clash with his body. My stomach did a flip when his rock body came in contact with mine. A sting on my lips brought me to reality. With a last bite his face left mine. My face must be looking flushed. I gulped and tried to control the harsh breathing. His gaze bored into me while his thumb rubbed my lips, making me suck my breath. I was so scared to release it. The rain made it even worse. I clenched my thighs tightly and looked at him. His face carried that victorious smirk making my heart stop. My heart never slowed down. All alone with him. In the forest. May be I can run away. But where? I don't know where the fuck I'm. I would rather be lost than to be with this arrogant bastard. A hard grip on my arm made my thoughts break. "Don't even think about that, cara mia. You don't want to trigger me more than this, do you?" He said threading his fingers through his hair and flipping it back. Shit. That was hot as fuck. He chuckled and started dragging me towards the car. I pulled back harshly before signing, " don't touch me". He chuckled before raising his both hands dramatically, " after you my lady" he said. My stomach just flipped. I gulped a lump and released a sigh before walking away. Though he is behind me I can feel his eyes on my back, making it burn. I folded my arms against my chest and walked faster. I can feel his warmth and the stupid smirk on his evily handsome face. Shit that was so close. Finally at this time, i will get what I want, no matter what.