𝙄𝙣𝙩𝙤𝙭𝙞𝙘𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚

★ the muse ★

This is insane.
I did not sign up for this. Me and him in the same room. Ain't no way. But this sick piece of shit won't leave me alone. I gritted my teeth as I watched the maids carrying my things out of my room. I stood there and watched everyone closely. I gulped down all the emotions that had been rising in my throat.
I closed my eyes and released a deep breath before bashing into the restroom. My mirror is replaced. I grabbed my hair tightly. So tightly. This isn't me. I don't know me. I think I will lose it. Soon. I just can't. All my life I have been just pretending. I'm afraid my mask will fall off. Staying in the room with him means we will be encountering each other often. He is taking away that some time too. I released my hair and sighed. My throat started hurting and my eyes started burning. My chest felt heavy. I banged on my chest and coughed out. I can't breathe. I can't breathe. I can't breathe. I gripped the sink and stood up. I let the water splash on my face. I can't breathe.
"Remember the next time you open your mouth. Something worse than this will happen. And you know I'm capable of that."
I looked at the mirror and gulped. The voices in my mind need to be stopped. I shook my head before exiting the bathroom. My heart accelerated finding the room empty. I grabbed the hoodie from the bed and walked out of the room. I sneaked out of the house and reached the compound wall. I gulped looking up. At this point if I jump from here, I will end up with a broken bone. Anyways I need that pain right now. I ran to the tree nearby and started climbing up. I held onto the branch tightly and sighed. The sweat covered my body. The sound of the branch breaking made my heart accelerate. Shit. That's it I'm done. I closed my eyes and got ready to get hit in my head. The branch broke completely making me gasp. I reached out to grab something. Anything. The whole thing was like a slow motion. I closed my eyes and waited and waited. To fall down and break a bone or two. I opened my eyes and my throat went dry when my eyes clashed with a pair of dark eyes. "Going somewhere, cara mia?" He asked in his deep voice and thick italian accent. The moonlight lit his face up making it scary. His jaw ticked and his eyes were turning black. I cleared my throat before wiggling away. He left me but stood so close to me. I pushed myself further into the tree. It's over. He caught me. I adjusted my jacket and rubbed my hands on either side of the shorts. He grabbed me by hand harshly and started dragging me somewhere. My hands started shivering. This is gonna be okay. I jogged to keep up with his pace. He opened the door with a bang and pushed me inside. I looked down not daring to look up. I fisted my hands so hard that it might leave prints later. The door was shut with a loud bang making me flinch. I licked my lips making them wet. My foot refused to settle down. He came close to me. So close but did nothing. "Look at me" his voice echoed near my ear. Still not dared. His hand wrapped around my arm and pulled me closer to him. I gasped and looked at him. "Do you think of me as a joke?" He asked, his left eye twitched at the end. I shook my head. I think my heart might just explode. "Or I'm being too nice with you" he asked tilting his head. I closed my eyes and bit my lower lip. Just end this nonsense. "I'm sorry" I signed. He tsked. His hand curled around my neck and grabbed me closer to him. I rested my hand on his waist. "If I ever find you again doing that, you will see what the fuck I'm capable of" he said looking down at me. I clenched my fist before nodding my head. He released me and said, " you'll be staying here, from now on" he said. Being that close to me. Something caught my throat. I can't move an inch. His eyes are an abyss. That pulls me closer and closer. I looked away being flustered. "I have to use the restroom" i signed. He did not move an inch. I looked at him to find out that he's looking at me already. He nodded his head towards the restroom door. I nodded my head before slipping away. This is insane. I rubbed my hands on my face harshly. It's so frustrating that I can't even scream. Shit. Shit. The blood started dripping from my nose. Not this time. I grabbed the tissue and stuffed it in my nose. This can't get worst. A knock interrupted me. "Are you alright?" A deep voice reached me. Is he fucking dumb? How can I even answer. This blood wouldn't stop. God. "I'm coming in" he said making me irritated. This is the tenth tissue that I'm grabbing. I can't stand anymore. I fell on my knees and closed my eyes. The door was opened making me flinch and turn away. "What happened" he said coming close to me. I shoot my hand to make him stop. Asshole. He ignored me and came near me. He kneeled down and his hand lifted my face. I tched before shoving his hand away. I stood up slowly and started walking away. Another minute with him will be a disaster. My heart skipped a beat when he lifted my face. I gulped at the thought of that. I gasped when I was pulled out of the blue. I clashed into his hard chest. Before I could process this bullshit he lifted me effortlessly and made me sit on the bathroom counter. I hissed when the cold marble came in contact with my skin. Heat spread my body when he spread My legs and settled between them. My hands rested on his shoulder. My gaze moved to him. He twisted his lip piercing. Again my stomach did that flipping thing. "I was asking you something, cara mia" he said caressing my cheek. I gulped before slapping his hand away. "Nothing and stop touching me." I signed. He chuckled before taking my hair strands and twisting it. "This suits you" he said. I don't know what he is up to. But whatever it is I will not let him under my skin. I watched him closely as his hand caressed my neck and his eyes darkened while looking at my neck. I licked my lips before pushing him away by his chest. His hands gripped my nape and pulled me closer. His face is so close. One wrong move his lips will be on mine. "voglio rovinarti" he muttered something before clashing his lips on mine. His lips piercing pressed on my lips and his tongue started exploring my mouth. I closed my eyes as my stomach tightened. I can't take this intimacy. His hands rested on my waist and pulled me closer. My core clashed with his bulge making my eyes go wide. I started running out of breath. I started tapping his shoulders. My eyes started tearing up a bit. I don't know what for. I bit his lip and  the taste of blood hit my tongue. He sucked on my lower lip for the one last time before pulling away. "Feisty, i see" he said rubbing his lip with his thumb. "Come to bed early" he said before walking away. I'm not sure I will survive this. The things are about to change.