𝙄𝙣𝙩𝙤𝙭𝙞𝙘𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚

★the muse★

That was the last night I saw him.
He's gone. Like a ghost. Disappeared from my life. It's been seven days since I saw him. The incident that happened seven days ago was a complete disaster. And my life has never been this worse. From that day onwards I was not allowed to go anywhere alone. This life sucks having someone watch you all day and night. A text made my thoughts break. It's from a unknown number. " I thought you needed some punishment as you were getting softer" it said. I read it again. Again. Again. Again. Again and again. So it was all him? Did he know. Everything inside me shook. That message triggered something inside me. And the next thing that came into my mind was Dante. What if he found out about him and also it's Friday night. I can't skip it this weekend. If I skipped it I will be doomed. I exited the uni before an hour. Perfect sneak out. I went for him. My heart thumped harder as I was getting near the house. My hands started shivering and palm started sweating. I paid the driver and went straight to the appartment. I prayed with everything I had. I inhaled deep breath and knocked the door. Within a minute it was opened. My eyes met the suprised ones. "Ana you never told me you are visiting!!!" She said this before gathering me in a tight hug. I patted her back and let myself sink in her warmth. She is the only thing I have right now. The amount of help she has been doing is insane. She pulled back revealing her teary eyes and happy face. "He was asking for y-" "MOMMY!!!" A high pitched voice echoed in the empty apartment. A smile broke out from me when I saw him running towards me in the unsteady steps. I gathered him in my arms and lifted him up. His small hands were wrapped around my neck holding me in a chokehold. "Are you fine babyboy" i asked kissing him on his nose. He nodded his head and smiled brightly at me. A gasp made my head turn. Elena stood there with a surprised face and hands covering her mouth. "Ana!!" She exclaimed with a shock before coming towards me and hugging me again. "Mommy I want to show you something" he said and started wiggling away. I let him down and watched him go inside. Now that he is not in the room, I moved my gaze to the one who has been staring at me like I'm an alien. "He has to know ele" I said moving to the kitchen. "No no I'm just happy for you" she said following me around like Dante making me smile. A moment of thick silence had us hanging. "So what's your plan?" She asked. I looked at the water that has been boiling. It was boiling to the point where some water spilled out. "I don't know Elena" I said turning the stove off. "What do you mean by I don't know? Are you going to let all that go?" She asked taking a seat infront of me. "Maybe" i said with a sign. My hand grabbed the knife and started cutting the carrot. "So, you're going to let him go after all the things he did to you? After he killed her? After he made him ra-" i interrupted her, "Don't Elena" making her sigh and look down. "But why?" She asked. The grief and sadness dripped from her voice. Her eyes filled with a unshed tear. I nodded my head towards the hall. Where he is sitting and playing with his toys. She looked back at me with a pathetic look. "It's him, Elena. I would do anything for him"
I said as I watched him play. And just like that the time passed. It was nearly seven. Shit, I'm going to be late. I bid my goodbyes and ran off to the place I have been craving to go. Releif spread my veins when I reached the entrance. I took a deep breath and calmed myself down before running inside. The crowd is already ready. The loud music blast my ears off and the smoke blurred my eyes. "You're fifteen minutes late" a voice shouted over the loud ass music. I looked back finding him again. Shock filled my veins as a laughter spilled out of his mouth. "Are you surprised?" He shouted again making me nod my head. Because I truely am. I threw my hands on his shoulder and brought him into a tight hug. He laughed again before lifting me up a bit with the grip on my waist. "How are you? Where have you been? Are you alright? I was looking f-" "slow down my lady" he told before flicking my forehead. I chuckled before hitting him playfully on his chest. "And the participants are asked to come to the track" the announcement came making our heads turn. "As always?" He asked before throwing my keys. "Yeah" I said before catching it. He nodded his head and sent me off. The match is about to start. 3 2 1 and here it goes. My baby rumbled before bashing away. The purple bmw got near me, making my pupil dilate. I switched gears before racing away. The finishing point started getting visible. Boom. Some car started hitting me from behind. Fuck. I changed the modes and flew right across the finishing line. I parked it by drifting and got down. My face is flushed. The crowd cheered as they started passing alcohols. I smiled at him before taking a cup for myself and gulping it down. "As always " he said once I was close to him. "And slow down pretty girl you might pass out" he said making me chuckle. "Not today, Gareth" I said before chugging down multiple shots. "Announcement!! We have a special guest today-'' "again it might be some boring ass annoying the fuck out of us" he muttered making me smile. He was directly facing the stage as I'm facing him. The loud music and sound of cars are relaxing. "Wow he's pretty hawttt" Gareth said making me hit him. "Stop it, Gareth" the drinks was heavenly poisonous. They slipped down my throat making it burn. "Uh uh do you think you know him, sweety. Cause he has been staring at us like he's going to kill me" he said. I'm not drunk. Okay I'm drunk but still sober a bit. I grabbed his arm for a support and looked back finding him. What the fuck?? What the fuck is he doing here. I turned around and looked at Gareth giving me a slick smile. "What?" I asked making him wiggle his eyebrows. "Isn't he hot?" He said. "What the fuck? Gareth could you please shut the fuck up!" I whisper yelled him making him frown. Oh shit he doesn't know that I'm married but what's more important than this is that me hiding. As soon as possible. "I'm gonna use the restroom" i shouted making him look at me. The look on his eyes were strange. But he nodded his head at me. I gulped and looked at him for one last time before walking through the crowd. I looked back hoping he would be gone. Shit. Shit shit. His eyes pierced into mine. Chills ran down my spine and goosebumps erupted from my whole body. I turned quickly and started walking out. But fuck this crowd is making me sick. I looked back again once I was surrounded by more people. Huh? He was gone. Thank fuck. I stared back for the last time and felt happy that he was gone.
I was bumped into a hard chest. I grabbed that person's waist for support. I bowed down as I tried to get away. A veiny tattooed hand grabbed me by my arm. This arm I have see- I looked up finding those pair of dark eyes making my soul leave my body. The lights are making me blind and the loud music seems to be on mute. Although I'm surrounded by a thousands of people I felt as if I'm alone with him. The chill air made my knees weak. His jaw hardened when I licked my lips and made them wet. As usual he wore a white shirt which fitted him perfectly with a pair of straight pants that had no crease. He had his sleeves rolled up making his tattoos revealing and also had the first few buttons open slightly displaying his hard chest. I'm not short but when he stands infront of me he's all that I see. I gulped and tried to pull my hands away from his grip. And the keyword is tried. "I have t-" the words stuck in my throat when he leaned down to hear me. He's so close that his fresh smell filled my lungs and the warmth radiating from his body is all over me. My breath hitched as I searched for the words. "I-i ha-ve to use res-troom" the words spilled out more like a whisper. He leaned back and stared at me. And me? I looked everywhere except him. My arm burned from his touch. I tried for the one last time. Maybe the worst move. Is he dumb? I was trying to get away. But he pulled me even closer making my breath stuck. His face was close making me stop breathing. The crowd started pushing making me squirm against him. My body was completely pressed against him, the only thing that seperates us is a peice of clothes. His steel-like grip landed on my back, making it hard for me to move. All this time, he did not open his mouth for once. My stomach dropped when his lips held a dangerous smirk. But that was the last thing I saw before being eaten by him. His other hand wrapped around my nape and pulled me even closer. The alcohol started kicking in. I let my hands fall on his shoulders. The ecstasy filled my veins and the toes curled inside my shoes. Something poked my lower stomach making me break the kiss. My vision blurred as he caressed my neck. I looked down finding a bulge in his pants making my cheeks burn. I bit my lower lip before looking away. I pushed him by his chest and sneaked through the crowd. I left the crowd behind and reached the entrance. A gasp left me when I was lifted all of the sudden. This-
He threw me in his shoulders as if I'm a sack of potatoes. "W-what are you even doing?" I yelled. "Yah" i screamed beating his back. "Do you have death wish?" I shouted. I kicked my legs and bet his back and also Wiggled so hard hoping I would be free. "You bas-" the words struck in my throat and the heat spread in my cheek when his hard hand landed on my butt.
Once we were near the parking he left me down and crushed me in between the car and him. Suddenly I ran out of words. "You were saying something, cara mia" he asked caging me inbetween his hands. "First of all I'm ana" I can hear the slur in my voice but I just can't stop this word vomit. "Mhm Mhm" he said with a slight smirk hanging on. "And you can't treat me like this" I said poking his chest. "Like what" he asked in a beat. I gulped before answering, "like this" I said with the guesture between us. "But you did not seem to have a problem when I had my tongue down your throat" he said making my cheeks heat. I might be looking like a tomato right now. "Arggg why are always being like this" I said with frustration. "Like what, princess?" he asked tucking my hair behind my ear. "You are...doing here something..my heart ca- you are- why are being so nice to me?" I asked being annoyed. The next thing he did made my heart stop. The ground under me just slipped away when a beautiful laughter spilled out of his mouth. "Hey..don't- don't do this" I said grabbing his collar. His fingers curled around my wrist before asking, "do what?" He asked with a chuckle. "This...thing on your face....it lookes wierd and a-also when I wake up tomorrow I might forget it." I said with a flow. " Never knew drunk Ana could be this fun!" He said making my eyes roll. "You want to know something, princess?" He asked as his face went back to its own form. Straight,  cold and....scary. "I'm anything but nice" he whispered in my ears. And that was the last thing I heard before blacking out.