He has my heart. L.s.

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LOUIS P.O.V

This is all so stupid...I'm not even sure why we are fighting. I mean we never fight. I'm always an asshole and she just deals with it, I mean that's me.
Asshole Louis. I don't know what's wrong with her, sure today I have been more snappy toward her, when I didn't even notice I was.

To be honest I just have other stuff on my mind, and every time I try to think about it El is there being clingy and annoying. If I'm honest I'm not even sure if I like her anymore. Sure we snog and fuck she might say she loves me, hell she does love me I know she does. I might occasionally say it back, I don't think I mean it though...no I don't. I have never been in love, never. Well once, but that only ended in me getting hurt and the other person getting hurt.

Anyway way off topic, when I bumped Harry Styles shoulder I was going to say something snarkey and mean, but then I remembered his black eye and his wrists. I didn't say something.

I don't even know what store I'm in, but guessing buy all the toys I'm in some Toys-R-Us. Maybe I can get something for the twins. I have four sisters.
Four. I'm the eldest and the only boy in my intermediate family. Charlotte- Lottie is the second eldest, then Félicité / Fizzy. Then the twins Daisy and Phoebe. Okay well I also have a half sister Georgia Austin, well they all are my half sisters but Georgia and I have different Mums so I dont see her often. My last name was Austin until my mum changed it to Tomlinson from my step dad's Mark Tomlinson...but they are divorced and yeah it's confusing.

I just roam the isles not really looking for anything.

"Dude hiding in a toy store really?" I hear Zayn's thick accent. I turn around to see the raven haired boy standing there his hands deep in his pockets. A cig behind his ear.

"I didn't know it was a toy store, I just ran off," I shrug looking at a doll I know Daisy would love. If I had the money I'd buy it for her, well I do have the money but the money isn't mine, not all of it. I have to give it to my dealer who gives me the drugs to sell. No I'm not a druggie, I just test the merchandise to make sure it's good.

"Why did you run?" He asks. "That's not the Louis I know, you would've kept arguing with her."

"Well I'm sorry! I just have a lot on my mind and a clingy girl is the last thing I need!" I snap wanting a cig at the moment.

"What's on your mind?" He asks worried.

"Nothing, personal stuff that's all," I mumble.

"Lou if I didn't know you better I'd think you were actually in love with her," Zayn mumbles. I shake my head no with a dry laugh.

"Me? In love?" I chuckle pretending to wipe tears from my eyes. Zayn just cocks his head to the side.

"You want love don't you?" He asks. "I mean come on being in love and knowing that person loves you is the best feeling."

"To you Zayn, to you. But you see being in a relationship ties you down 'cause then you have to worry about not cheating or flirting and-"

"You have cheated on Eleanor three times," Zayn points out. I roll my eyes and wave him off dismissing the matter.

"Point is I can't be my self around Eleanor-"

"So wait being an asshole around her isn't you?" Zayn yet again interrupts me. Bitch ass mother fucker. I glare daggers at him earning a smirk from him.

"Shut up and stop that! You get my point relationships just aren't good and love is pointless," I say crossing my arms across my chest.

"Love isn't pointless, love is well love. You know how I was before I meant Perrie getting drunk and high all the time-"