He has my heart. L.s.

14

HARRY'S P.O.V

A day. It's been a day since I felt Louis lips on mine, the lips I've wanted since last summer. Honestly I was so shocked I didn't know what to do, and he pulled back so fast that I couldn't react. Today however I still have that date with Mikey, to say I'm excited would be a lie. I don't want to talk to Mikey or be with Mikey, I want to talk with Louis- no I don't. I want to just stay away from him right now.

I stand running my hands through my hair trying to fix it, but it doesn't corporate so I give up.
Downstairs Mum is reading a novel drinking tea, Waiting for her sons friend to pick him up. I hate this about being Bisexual I can't tell my parents and I can't talk to my Mum about Louis kissing me.
Niall would just freak out and Liam would be awkward, the only person I have to talk about Louis is well Louis.

I hear knocking on the door and sigh, basically we are going to get lunch then that's it I guess, Mikey isn't really the romantic kind of guy. I stare at my reflection, at my lips. Louis kissed me.

"Harry! Michael is here!"

I walk down the stairs. I force a smile upon seeing Mikey. We walk outside to his car, he opens the door for me I thank him blushing a little bit.

"So cutie how are you?" He asks pulling away toward the direction of our date. I take a deep breath.

"I'm okay," Okay being completely confused and longing for a different man. Mikey starts driving, we pass the Skatepark/park I see Louis there with Liam, Louis sitting on his skateboard Liam on the ground. Louis casually looks over he sees me, wait maybe not, I don't know but he moves and his skateboard rolls from over the little ramp edge and he falls. I giggle as he blushes.

"What's funny?" Mikey asks. I shrug shaking my head. "Did you just think of a stupid joke?"

"Yea,"I shrug.

Soon we arrive at this place, it looks semi-fancy but casual too. I can't help but be a little distracted, yesterday keeps running through my mind over and over, his lips touch mine. I have never questioned his sexuality; always just assumed he was straight but now, well now I am questioning it.
I have a sick feeling that maybe all this is a joke, maybe Zayn and him thought it would be so hilarious.

We sit down and look through the menu, the air between us is thicker. After we order our food, we still haven't had a conversation.

"So Luke, Cal, and I we added a forth member to the band."

"Cool. Who is he?" I ask trying to sound interested, but of course as he goes into detail I loose interest.
My mind begins to wonder to daydreams, Louis filled daydreams.

I sneakily pull out my phone to see if I have any texts, I don't. Maybe I should text him first, ask about the kiss. Maybe I should pretend that the kiss didn't happen, but it did and my lips are still on fire. I suddenly tune into what Mikey is saying.

"So yeah. Ashton plays drums and Cal is getting a bass. Who knows you might be dating a famous person," he smirks, I try to laugh, but it sounds forced. Mikey continues to talk about himself, I just stare at the people coming and going.

"Harry?"

"Yeah?" I turn my attention to him.

"Are you paying attention?" He cocks an eyebrow. I nod motioning for him to continue.

**-*

I haven't done much talking on this date, not that I want to. Mikey is really sweet and cute, but I can't help but to think of Louis. We kissed yesterday!
Our lips touched! The weirdest part? He was the one who kissed me, it was only a second, but in that second I felt something. I'm not going to be cleché and say there was sparks, we didn't kiss long enough for there to be sparks. I don't know what the feeling was, whatever it was it was strong and all I want to do is kiss him again.

"Harry?"

"Cool," I mumble. "I mean, huh?"

"You aren't listening are you?" Mikey sighs, I've been caught red handed. I nod biting my lip feeling guilty. "What's on your mind?" He asks looking generally curious.

"Nothing, I just I don't feel the same way about you, I'm sorry."

"Hey, it's okay. I don't want you to feel pressured into anything. Do you like someone else?" He asks.
I shrug feeling a blush crawling to my face. "I get it your not ready for a relationship, but I'll wait and when your ready we will try this again."

I nod knowing I'll never feel the same for Mikey, I'll never return his feelings. After he pays the bill, which I let him because again I'm broke. We decide to head to my house to drop me off, I once again check my phone; no texts; no calls. Why isn't he pay texting me? He kissed me! Maybe he's confused.

***

After retyping the text over and over I fianlly find the right words.

Me:
We need to talk, I understand if you don't want to or even scared to, but you owe this to me tell me why you did that.

I sit on my roof ledge staring at the evening sky now, waiting for the buzz. Everything is so confusing, yes I'm bisexual but he isn't. Suddenly my phone buzzes.

Louis:
I don't want to talk.

I read the message three times, he doesn't want to talk? What does that mean? Doesn't want to talk ever again?

Me:
Then when?

I get an instant reply.

Louis:
Ever.

My heart immediately falls into my stomach. Just a few days ago he seemed happy and would talk with me all the time. I shared more about my family than I have ever with even Niall, he knows my sexuality. Now he just wants to stop talking? Fine then. Not the first person who has hurt me. He kissed me, if he wants to run and hide because he's that embarassed then fine.

I don't need him. I am so stupid for thinking that there could be something between us, so stupid for thinking he felt the same way. That he got butterflies when we touched each others arms or hands. Screw him. He can go burn in hell for all I care.

I have people wanting to date me, maybe I can date Mikey, maybe after awhile I can actually feel the same. Why should I have to sit around crushing on a man who doesn't feel the same way? Louis is an asshole anyway.