The pale lights of this room
Feel like they stretch on
Like somehow I'm smaller
I don't know how to respond
I have been hiding from it
Days have passed as I have
Tried to dismiss this truth
That you will never be my man
Our friendship has flourished
We've allowed it to grow
I wished it'd been more
But now I know
You are not the one for me
Not now
I don't know why
I wish I knew how
I wish I knew who was
It might be easier to move on
However, it will be as it is
Life goes on
I hate that I feel
My efforts were in vain
You've taught me a lot, though
Even though it's been a pain
I pray that my heart can be free
I pray the Lord directs its path
I pray that I will choose who is right
I pray that I will find something that lasts
The truth is that you won't choose me
You're not ready to commit
The truth is I need more
And that's hard to admit
It was good what we had
I pray we both find better
I know I'll be fine
And one day you'll see I mattered
One day you will regret
Losing such a good friend
For a figment of imagination
This all came to an end
One day you will see
That you could've done more
I hope the girl you choose gets better
Or else what was this for?
Now, I struggle to say goodbye
And I continue to love you still
I pray I can follow what the Lord has said
Not mine, but His will