I hate how it all went
I hate that it's still sort of going
I feel my love is spent
And I'm left without knowing
What do you think of me?
How are you truly feeling?
Are we ever going to be?
This has sent me reeling
I've discovered I want more
Than I thought I did at first
I want my heart to soar
It's more than just thirst
I'd be lying if I said
That I don't still want you
But this thing is nearly dead
In your silence, it's through
I know it's also because of me
I got too excited
I've never gone so slowly
I don't know what I expected
Like it was destined to end
Haunted by my lack of good experience
But I've been glad to bend
Beyond comfort and into such radiance
I miss how we started
It felt meant to be
But now that we're parted
I can finally see
You, though older, are too young
I've experienced and grown
Your life is barely sung
Never too far from home
I wonder if I scare you sometimes
I wonder if you're hiding things from me
It doesn't matter, you're not mine
Although I wish you'd be
I've chosen to let this go
It's something I have to actively do
These feelings are hard not to show
I have to stop myself from texting you
It's all just dwindling
Lost among random funny clips
Time exhausted like kindling
And though I had wanted to, I never got to taste your lips
You should've kissed me
You should've called
That is, if you truly liked me
I hate this stone wall
You want us both to date around
But you say you still want to date me
I understand why without a sound
About it... truly
Your parents divorced then remarried so quickly
It must be so jarring
To be one thing than another entirely
How your mind must be warring
I know I signed up for this
You basically gave me an out
I guess I got caught on the wish
That maybe you'd clear your doubt
I wish you were here
I wish this was all easier
I hate how quickly I get caught on the mere
Thought of you, and wanting to break this barrier
Please just be honest
Let me know what we are and what you're thinking
Even if it means this truly needs to rest
Either way, I'm going to stop vying
For your attention
Spoken words never flow as easy as written
Take up your pen if you must
Luckily, I love pages that are handwritten
I just want to know
Rather than waiting in the dark
Wondering if it's so...
Even still, this has left its mark
On my life and what I know of myself
I've discovered more than I thought I would
Like how I refuse to be kept on a shelf
Just in case the one you really want says no
I'm worth more than that
I want to be someone's first choice
More than just a fun chat
More than just another voice
So, tell me
Let me go
Or let this be
Only you know
The End
