gabrielle
"i'll be right up, i just have a question about the phone for ruby" i told scott, who had already beaten me to the top of the staircase.
"okay" he said, disappearing around the corner into his bedroom, the crimson coloured paint peeking out from behind the door.
i turned, careful not to let my socked feet slide down the wooden staircase. i stood at the bottom for a moment, waiting to hear the sound of water falling from the shower head.
"ruby" i said, drawing his attention to me.
"what's up gabi?" he asked, not expecting to see me again so soon.
he called me gabi, as compared to just gab from scott.
"can i ask you something?" i proposed, sitting on the white leather couch opposite to him.
"sure" he shrugged, appearing a little confused.
"what did you mean by that, earlier?" i asked, desperately seeking clarification.
"just be careful, i guess" he said, thinking carefully about his words.
"but why did you say that? he's been perfectly good to me the last few days" i said, not comprehending why ruby would have told me that.
"i've known him his whole life gabi, you've known him for like, three days, im not trying to be rude or anything. the streets raised us, especially him. as much as we can pretend what we do doesn't effect us, it does. he's been through a lot, more than one person should ever have to be put through. deep down he's jaded. he doesn't trust easily. he gets paranoid. he's been doing a little better recently, but it happens. i'm not trying to stop you from anything, just, be careful. i know you both have rocky relationship history, i don't want either of yall getting hurt" ruby explained, saying so much but also so little at the same time. his answer to my question creating about 10 new ones with each sentence he spoke.
"and don't tell him i said any of that" he added, in a warning tone.
"okay" i nodded, overwhelmed with information, unsure of how to truly properly respond.
"i just care about both of ya now", the corner of his lips just barely turning upwards into a smile.
i nodded, trying to hide the fact that i could suddenly feel my heart pounding through my rib cage.
i don't really know what i expected scott to be, ruby was right. i hardly knew him. i had a bad habit of charging into things head first, fast and furious without ever really considering any other implications until it was too late.
that's how i fucked up my family.
that's how i ended up in the wrong crowd.
that's how i ended up meeting merrick.
that's how i ended up staying with merrick.
was i just getting myself into the same thing once again?
fuck.
scott must have heard me open the bedroom door, "joining me?" he called to me over the sound of the running water.
"one second!" i responded, setting down the phone ruby had given to me. i needed a moment to collect myself, not wanting to alert him to my change in mood.
i didn't want him knowing ruby said anything, i didn't want either of them mad at me, knowing i'd probably be left to dead for merrick.
you do this every time, gabrielle.
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