Unconditional Oceans (MegYoncé)

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Beyoncé:

Megan comes out of the airport with the little boy on her hip and damn he looks just like her.

Same eyes, same nose, same curly hair.

I really think this is her son.

I hop out of the car and give her an awkward kiss.

Everything feels so off right now.

She puts him down for a moment to strap his car seat in and he holds onto her leg tightly.

I kneel to his level.

"Hi Mason. I'm Beyoncé." I say softly.

He hides behind her.

"He hasn't spoken yet." She says quietly.

"He just needs time." I say watching him peer at me from between her legs.

He seems like he knows Megan is his mom. She's already a safe space for him.

I get it. She's a safe space for me, too.

She straps him into the car seat and he curiously peers over at Jovanna.

"That's your sister Jojo." I tell him.

"Babe, we don't know if they're siblings yet." She says quietly.

"Megan, look at him." I tell her. She does and they make the same curious expression. "He's your twin."

"I have to get that on paper."

When we get home Megan takes him upstairs for a bath while I feed Jojo.

I don't even know how to feel.

I'm frustrated I guess.

I thought I had her first child.

I know that's petty and selfish. Especially considering Jojo wasn't my first pregnancy.

And she had no idea he was out there so I can't really be frustrated with her.

I'm frustrated with her ex for not telling her.

I feel bad that she missed the first 4 months of my pregnancy with Jojo but with Mason she's missed the first 3 years.

If he is hers she'll never get over losing that time with him.

I take Jojo upstairs to change her diaper.

Megan is drying Mason off as I pass the bathroom.

"Beyoncé, can you come here for a second." She calls.

The tone of her voice troubles me a little.

I double back to the bathroom.

"Look." She says quietly showing me Mason's back and stomach.