You think you're doing better and then suddenly wake up in middle of night getting scared crying and not knowing what to do then. You think you've escaped that dark place but one incident again and you are back to square one . It feels like all the personal growth went to waste. Your mind starts getting filled with negative thoughts again. You start having sleepless nights again. You start waking up again with a heavy heart. Anxiety hits you again and you feel like you have never recovered. You just stop living and start existing. You just breath you don't live. You just do everything for the sake of doing it not from heart. You just get done with day because you have to and don't even feel a single emotion throughout the day . Escaping the dark place is never easy . Recovery is always hurtful. You fall again and again . It takes time. It takes alot of courage .
