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Today was the dreaded day that no one wanted to do an especially me, Today was Joseph's funeral an we were laying him to rest.
I missed him so much it hit hard when he passed away in my arm's we had gotten in a car crash together just after his game an the car hit his side I broke my leg still have it.
Just remembering myself running around the car an opening Joseph's door I pulled him out of the car as the car was smelling like petrol.
An falling on the ground Joseph was still alive then He slowly took my hand an said I love you baby that's when he went limp an I cried an screamed.
It's been a Month since I lost him an it doesn't feel right sleeping in a bed alone one person hug's cooking dinner by myself an waiting for someone to walk through the front door I will admit I am lonely.
Looking around the house I miss you Joseph -I said My phone rang an I picked it up Hello -I said Hey darling -Mum said Hi Mum -I said Hey you alright do you want to come early -She said Yeh I will meet you there -I said.
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Going into the bedroom I got changed an sprayed Joseph's cologne on me going out of the bedroom I grabbed my car key's an walked outside.
Me an Joseph lived together but now he's gone I feel sad an lonely so I've decided to move back into my parent's they didn't want me alone in this time so I agreed.
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Unlocking my car I hopped in an drove to the funeral home. Parking my car I can do this -I said to myself. Getting out of the car I locked it an walked inside.
*Hi* -Lady said Hi I'm here for the Joseph Sua'a'lii funeral I'm the host -I said *Oh yes Y/n your parent's an his parent's are here* -She said.
I nodded *So we are still setting up picture's an chair's* -She said Ok I'm just gonna go talk with my family if you need anything I'll gladly help -I said.
Hey mum -I said Hey darling how are you -She said Getting life done day by day but just trying to get the house packed up -I said.
"Darling if you need help I will an your brother's will help" -My dad said Could you cause everything I do I keep breaking down -I said "Of course honey" -He said.
I walked to Joseph's parent's *Hello sweetie* -His mum said Hi uhm as you know I'm moving back with my parent's so if you guy's want to come over an go through Joseph's stuff to keep your more then welcome to -I said.
*Thank you honey we will this weekend good* -She said Yes perfect my parent's will help since I just cry -I said *An that's ok darling you lost your boyfriend he's watching over you proud* -She said.
I broke down an hugged her *It's alright honey* -She said rubbing my back I really miss him -I said *Me to darling he's watching over us* -She said Sorry -I said.
*Don't darling it's ok today is a day you'll cry alot* -She said I nodded. Soon people starting arriving as the Samoan an Rooster's team did as well as other NRL player's who knew Joseph.
I walked to the hallway to the coffin where some of the player's were, as they held the coffin an I was in front holding him to.
Walking to the stage I wiped a tear an looked at the sky an smiled For you baby -I whispered. Hello all I want to thank you all for joining us today to celebrate the life of Joseph Sua'a'lii he was a boyfriend, son, best friend, uncle, brother and grand son -I said.
Joseph I know your watching up there baby I want to let you know how proud I am of you in all the achievement's you've accomplished I won't forget the day I met you an the day I lost you -I said sobbing.
I don't like that you were taken away from me an I so wish I was gone to, to be with you or it was me I know your kicking that ball up there that's all you loved doing an I loved watching you play -I said.
Sorry to the other Rooster's an Samoan's but I'd say he was the best player, Joseph I love you so much an I will never stop Fly high baby get the rest you need My Rooster -I said breaking down at the last bit as I walked off into my parent's arm's.
Joseph's parent's walked up an I listened as they broke down while speaking. It was the laying him to rest part an we all walked to the hole I grabbed a rope with the other boy's an we lowered him down I broke down crying as he laid there.
Grabbing a few rose's I crouched down Love you Joey my baby -I said slurring as I placed the rose's down. The player's put the dirt over an we all cried in a circle around him.
