Mitsukou oneshots

I am both nothing and everything

Angsty angst cause I'm mean >:3

A HC I have for Kou that applies in this!
Growing up with supernaturals makes kou confused of the world around him, he wants to grasp it and learn what it is, just how he imagines Teru does.

TW: sewerslides gorey description and gay asses who I love dearly

On with the story!!

Kou pov:

I am both nothing and everything. I can breathe other times I struggle to confirm my existence. Sometimes I am human I am alive I am joy. Other times I ponder what it means to be alive and if it's exactly that I have been doing.

I struggle to understand why I can't be what I want to be. I struggle to understand why Teru-nii doesn't see supernaturals the way I do. I struggle to understand if he's in the right or if it's me who is right. I struggle and struggle. Yet others suffer more, I have no right to complain. I'm making it worse. I'm making it all much worse than it actually is.

I miss mom but it's not as bad as other people's situations. Sure it scarred me and still haunts me but I have no right to mourn someone who I only knew for a few years, I spent most of that time with Teru-nii anyways.

I am a weak fragile person. I don't deserve love or care. I receive something I don't deserve. I am not worth loving. I can't be loved when I live in my head like this. I can't be loved if I have these thoughts.

I need someone to confirm my existence and likes. I need to make sure I am who I project onto others. I can't do it. I can't do it.

I look at him just after he yelled at me. It's true, I don't understand him as well as I'd like to. I am human. I wouldn't know.

"Mitsuba.." I muttered my gaze widening, I mean how could someone be going through all this with no support or recollection of their life before. He doesn't deserve this, much like Sousuke, Mitsuba needs friends.

"How about I die too, then we can be together forever."

I suddenly feel his tears pause. He looks up at me, as if he craved for company but didn't want to ask for it. His tear shimmered in the starlight. I took off my earring, I wanted Teru and Tiara to have a piece of me.

I wanted them to know this was entirely my decision. I chose this. I place my earring on the ground next to him and smile softly. I want him to know I'm with him through and through. He said he wanted everyone to die and be like him so I will obey and help him with the burden that is his wish.

I grab him tightly. Going with him doesn't feel bad, the weight on my shoulders hurts so badly but the second the wind hits my neck, the shivers release me of all my expectations and responsibilities.

"We'll die and figure out how to become regular humans together, okay Mitsuba!?" I yell almost giggling, the thought of being free is enticing.

Mitsuba tried to grab the building and stop my fall but he was a second too late.

Mitsu pov:

I tried to save him, I really did. I don't know why but the sight of his blood mixing with mine on the ground brought me comfort. He cares for me. He didn't have to yet he did, he risked it all for me. He did it all for me. But why? Why would he do anything for me.. oh. OH.

I see.. that's why...

I chuckled a little bit as my cheeks flushed. I'm flattered. Or maybe it's because I'm in the shell of someone he once loved. That's it. Nothing else to it.

He jolted up. "Geez don't scare me like that!" I said as a flinched. "Mitsu.. wait where are we?" He said looking at his arms and legs seeing how they were wet. "Far shore, you died remember?" I said sassily. "Oh, right." He said in a tone that sounded so monotone, as if I brought up a topic that should never be touched.

"I'm sorry, let's go to boundary and figure out what to do next." I said attempting to be nice. He nodded and we started walking, I'm a little confused on how to get back but I think that guy said something about... Nevermind, I'd rather not think of it, humans are complicated, i understand I feel bad for him and I want to help him but what is this other feeling, I feel as if my heart beat is being wrapped in a nice warm blanket and hugged.

It feels wrong but so right, I feel as if he were to stop and go home I'd cry. I don't get this. I felt my cheeks get redder as he entered my boundary for the second time. All the words he said were on loop in my head, it made me wanna cry. How could someone care so deeply for another being? I don't understand but I am so deeply happy.

(A/n: should I do a pt 2??)