Normal Girl

Chapter 48

Olivia

It's been 2 months since Trina's passing and I couldn't stop thinking about her. It was hard for me to let her casket go in the ground that I almost jumped in there but Chris grabbed me in time. I don't know what I was thinking but the realization that she physically wasn't here anymore hit me so hard. She had dreams and aspirations which she was going to live out once her mom got better. The crazy thing is paying off her mom's medical bills and getting her more help she became cancer free but it was too late for Trina to know that. I wish none of us met that egotistical jerk, I wish he never even existed or my dad never asked him for help. But that's life and we make mistakes and learn from them. Any day now I'll be giving birth and any day now Cain will get his, I came up with a well thought out plan too. Chris doesn't know either because this is my war and I was determined to make Cain pay. I know that I'll put myself in danger but this anger built up inside of me wanted to take revenge out on him for Trinny, for him treating me like shit and for him thinking he could take me away from my little family. He got me fucked up and I'm going to end him once and for all. Kyra got it coming too. 

I'm supposed to be happy because my baby boy was coming anytime soon but I couldn't get this out of my mind. I just hope that my son is not feeling my anger and will be a happy baby. I kept having a dream about Trinny and cried when I woke up but hid it from Chris. It's hard losing a loved one especially since she was only 26 and couldn't even live her life. 

I woke up earlier than I usually do and went out back to take a swim since I couldn't take any walks by myself being 9 months pregnant to clear my head. This has been a frequent thing since I've been in my last trimester because I needed exercise. I dipped down in the pool and sighed.

"I'm sorry if you feel my anger, my pain, and heartache but I hope that you are a happy baby."-I said to my belly

I started swimming on my back and floated in the middle of the pool when I heard the back door slid open, I already knew that it was Chris because he would always wake up when he didn't feel me in bed.

"How long are you going to be out here baby?"-He called out

"Not long, I couldn't sleep."-I swam to the edge of the pool to him

"You had that dream again? That you have been trying to hide from me, I hear you cry all the time but you don't have to be alone in the night. I told you I'm here with you."-He sat down beside me

"I know I'm sorry."-I looked at him with tears in my eyes

"You don't have to be sorry baby, I know what you're going through but you don't have to go through it alone besides Matteo will be here soon that should bring you some happiness right? Not saying you should forget about her but she would want you to be happy. We both have been waiting to see who he looks like and waiting to hold him."-He kissed my forehead

"It's been two months and I hate that she left because of that jerk. I can't get over that Chris, she probably can't even be at peace. I miss her and I wish I talked to her a lot more or went to Houston to spend more time with her."-I cried

"Baby you have to remember that you had the best memories with her, that everything you went through with her over the years is still a part of you. Ya'll grew up together and you can look at all the pictures you have with her, she's not completely gone because she's in your heart. Yeah she crossed paths with him but he'll have to live with what happened for the rest of his life and you can live your life knowing who she was before she met him. I know that swimming is an exercise for you but you can't be out here too long in your thoughts and what if your water breaks while you're swimming? Come on baby, come in the house please?"-He begged

"I guess you're right and help me out please."-I reached up to him

"I got you"-He slowly pulled me out of the pool and put me down