Remember Me

That video

Dan woke up before Phil the next morning. So he decided to scroll through Tumblr while he waited.

He chuckled quietly every now and then as he came across the phanart. Some recreations of weird screen shots of Dan were the hardest to keep quiet for.

Dan eventually came across a video in his tags, this video he doesn't remember seeing so he clicked on it.

"Awrf. Hi Dan. Happy Valentine's Day."

~

When Phil woke up he noticed Dan wasn't in the room. "Dan?" He called out not knowing where the lad had gone, but he had to still be in the house do to the laptop still running on the desk.

Then he noticed the open tab, that video that shouldn't have ever been made public.

"Dan!" Phil called out worriedly until he got a response.

"I'm in the shower babe!"

'Babe? Babe!' Phil thought as he quickly got out of bed and started pacing.

'He's got the wrong idea now!'

'I mean I could alway just accept it but I'd he taking advantage of him!'

'We did have something but he didn't want it after we gained more of a following!'

All these thoughts raced through Phil's mind as he tried to think of what to do.

He heard the shower stop and decided to quickly power down the laptop and close it. Maybe he could lie a bit and make it like Dan imagined the video.

Phil decided to busy himself in the kitchen until Dan asked about the video by cooking breakfast.

Soon enough Dan was behind Phil hugging his waist, blush rose to Phil's face.

"Smells delicious lion" Dan said as he rubbed Phil's hips, thinking it was a normal occurrence.

"Dan, what are you doing?" Phil said trying to stay serious as he pushed Dan's hands off him.

"Complementing my boyfriend, what else would I be doing?"

Phil winced as he heard 'boyfriend' come out of Dan's mouth.

"Boyfriend? I'm not your boyfriend, we're best friends Dan" he said but wished he was Dan's boyfriend.

"You're both you dweeb" Dan chuckled as he shifted his hands to rub Phil's sides.

Phil froze but quickly pushed Dan's hands off him again as he moved to put the egg on a plate.

"We aren't dating Dan" Phil said as seriously as he could as he handed Dan his plate and took a seat at the table.

Dan laughed before he hugged Phil from behind the chair "You don't need to lie till I remember everything, I remember most things about us though, like our first kiss".

Phil sighed before pushing Dan's hands off him "We've never kissed Dan, you're making up memories" he bluntly lied as he tried to eat his eggs.

The memory wasn't made up though, Phil fully remembered Dan kissing him on the Manchester eye. But that was years ago and thought it may be best if Dan forgot every memory that was them being more than friends.

"I'm not imagining it, I remember the day clearly. It was the day we first met and you were really nervous. You relaxed after I kissed you" Dan stated.

Phil wish he could admit Dan was right but he couldn't as he spoke "Dan, We've never been anything more than friends. We've never dated nor have we kissed. Now if you'll excuse me I'm going for a walk" he said quite angrily, not with Dan but himself as he got up and left the apartment.

Dan stood there in shock before he shook his head and retreated back to his room after grabbing his laptop.

He knew he wasn't making up the memory, he remembered it clearly. It was October 19th, 2009, when they met and shared their first kiss.

He quickly logged back on as he opted to browse until Phil cooled off and came home.

~

It was a few hours until Dan realized why Phil had acted the way he did. They did date, but Dan being too worried about what the fans thought broke up with Phil.

He didn't even understand why he did looking back. He was so happy with Phil but he threw it all away because he was afraid of what people thought.

Dan got up from the bed, he needed to get his frustration out as he kicked the wall. Yelping as his foot connected with the wall.

It wasn't enough as he started destroying his perfectly clean room. Ripping the comforter off the bed, throwing the pillows off, the bed sheet somehow ending up hanging on the door.

He was tired but he still wasn't done as he lifted the mattress off the bed frame and started throwing his stuffed animals everywhere.

The Totoro doll hitting his lamp and making it fall off the dresser, creating a crash.

He still hadn't remember every single aspect of his life, but he had remembered most of it and wished he hadn't.