Between Shadows: The Boy Who Found Heart in a Doctor's Heart.

Chapter one: Death in Rain

Vernon 

 I walked around the room to get a medicine, standing up from my chair beside my mother's bed in the hospital but she held my hand, shaking her head and insisting that I stay where I am. I sat back , taking her small, wrinkled hand in my hand as I smiled her,she has weak smile on her face as she spoke," I told you to get married, that I want to teach my daughter-in-law or maybe son-in-law teach cooking,I couldn't even become grandma." She cried, tears slipping from her eyes,I regretted not listening to her when she told me to get married with Jimin,he was in love but he wasn't something I am looking for,he deserved someone better,more expressive unlike me who doesn't even like to talk. 

" You have lots of time, just get well and I marry whoever you choose for me." I said, hoping for something that can't be happening but I chose a happiness for the moment,she signalled me to sleep beside her and I did, laying down beside her, looking at her dead eyes,the eyes which always held a love heart is now fogging with tiredness. " Look at you.. being a big boy. I can't even held in my arms." She mumbled, giggling as cough followed after ,"I will tell Wolf God to give you omega who loves cooking." Coughing in between her words, weather outside is pouring,rain blurred the view outside as raindrops hit glass window in her room,she loves rain even though sound of thunder scared her. 

When dad died,the weather was his favourite, that day would have been a sunniest day of that year,and now maa,I cried taking her almost lifeless body in my arms. " I will sulk if you leave me alone..maa," I shaked her body in my arms,she is getting cold,so I hugged her more tightly to pass the warmth I doesn't have. Maa is loving,she loves me but even her love couldn't heal the wound inside my heart,a yearning and feeling of being half I had half of my life is scary. 

My heart has cried more tears than my eyes are crying right now,my arms went as numb as my heart has been but I refuse to let Maa go,she can't leave me just like this,who will cook for me?, who will love me now?,who will remind me to drink water?, who will take care of me now? 

" Let go Vernon,let her go." Bryn said, separating me from my brother,a strong pair of hand manhandled me to other room,it wasn't night,I couldn't even sleep the pain away,I have to bury my Maa, what kind of son I am? She wanted to see her grandchild and I didn't even granted her that wish," oh Maa wake up..wake up,I am hungry." I tried to play a same trick I used to in childhood when Maa was sleeping and I had to wake her up, so I can play but I not kid anymore and she was sleeping for a enternal time, a sleep from which you can't wake up no how much you want. " Vernon,get a grip." Again a voice came,soft but authoritive. 

I still held Maa in my arms wanting to held her warmth as close to as much I can but she is turning cold now, everything around me blurred as my neck shooted with sharp pain,they were taking Maa's body away,I tried to fight but my body is getting numb and weak with every attempt to get Maa back in my arms and everything went black, voice getting distanced as much Maa was. 

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My head hurts as I opened my eyes,voice around me getting louder the more I opened my eyes and looked around,the baby blue walls I way too much familiar with seemed distance today,I hated them now,a soft bed I am in was the same Maa has been for two months, Maa she is dead now. 

" Vernon,are you awake?" Seokmin, general of army, son-in-law of royal family and most importantly,my half brother asked,his eyes red puffy,did he fight with his wife again? Or is he crying for Maa's death? 

" Did you nerves to make me unconscious?" I launched at him when I realised what had happened,and how I ended up here,I punched him in face, standing up as he dodged punch,he is taller than me just like his dad,the royal doctor of Alfred, who had married Maa out of pity. 

 He dodged my punch again as he attacked back,strangling me and putting me in chokehold, I cried, struggling to get out of his grip but he is stronger after all he is General of army,he has to be. " Look I did that for you,I can do it again but mamma deserves a peaceful funeral." Seokmin said loosening his grip as I fall flat on my hands, bracing myself on hands so my chest doesn't get injured. Maa is no more and keeping her will be shameful,a disrespect to her death. So ,I forced myself to put together and get a grip,I walked out of hospital room , going into the cottage near the once where me and Maa lived for years,behind the chamber of head pages family, which is my half brother's dad, Seokmin and Chan,the head page is my dad too but I never get the love because his love doesn't flow into my viens. 

I peeked into Maa's room,yellow sunflower everywhere on the wall she had painted it, saying when she will have grandchild,she will make this room a nursery and she herself will sleep in living room, looking over the baby,so no one take them from the big wooden window which shows the sunset or sunrise, Maa loves a lot. 

My room opposite her showed a big wing of Dutch, Seungcheol. He has been married for five years now,but still if I open window and saw the couple in balcony to the person who doesn't know them ,they will think they got married just right now. I never opened the window, relaying on the other side of window for sunlight. 

I pulled out black suit which represents the dark hollowness inside my heart,I put the suit on bed, going to take shower,I smelled like medicine, hospital and Maa,but I have to take bath. 

Even taking bath feels like a big task now Maa is not here to remind me to get out of washroom as I had been taking bath for long,my body worked on muscle memory, stripping myself out of the clothes as I started a shower, rubbing soap on my body to clean myself. 

I put on a suit going back to where Seokmin is waiting for me to take cart to go to the graveyard,the place where my mother will stay now. " Hyung, I am here." Chan waved his hands,the youngest brother of mine,I never had grudge with Chan,he was just a kid but Seokmin,he is older than me he could have protected me if he wanted to but he never did. 

" Show me the way," I said not feeling like to show any emotions when my heart is like black hole, whatever you put into it the hole will eat it up,suck the love out of it,no one in the world will have enough life to feed the hungry wolf , that's my heart is.