Between Shadows: The Boy Who Found Heart in a Doctor's Heart.

Chapter five: Weirdest comfort

Vernon 

Every bite of food made me remember my Maa and that's the moment I have decided to keep him in my home, with me even if I had mate,he will be the one to cook food and that's how it will me. He said something about himself, repeating his name again and again. I finished my food as he asked me if I am going to punish him for eating before me because he is hungry,of course not. It's a most absurd thing to do and if he is asking then he has been punished for eating,I wanted to ask him but I choose not to replying," No." I patted his hair,his cheeks getting crimson red,he is captivating in the way he talk,they way he blush even at slightest thing,given the place he was raised in he is more lively then I supposed him to be. 

"And baby capybara, don't sleep in my bed go to Maa's room." I said my eyes widened as the nickname sliped out of my mouth,a smile on my face,I cleared my neck, going into the room, everything was so clean, bedsheets were changed,not a single dust and room smelled like honey and roses, giving away the amount of time omega had spend in my room. I didn't mind afterall he is staying here for until he finds a alpha, even when I have mate,he can be helpful to Kwannie. 

In the corner Maa's guitar stays,she was telling me to learn so I can impress omega,at the age of twenty-seven I doesn't want to impress anyone,I only want someone to love me without them wanting to change me , someone who feels comfort in the silence I can give them, meaning behind my hmms and umms, feels thrill in my gentleness. 

Jimin,my ex,he wanted a alpha who can treat him harshly in bed and gently outside of it,I could do that,I am made up of harshness but like diamond cuts diamond,my harshness is cut by the harshness,dad gave me all the beating just because I was born,all the bullying I endured from Madam just because her husband's blood ran into me and despite of having one older,three younger siblings,sharing the same arena as me,I felt lonely, the thin line between loneliness and solitude have blurred ages ago,wiped slowly by Maa's tears and dad's belt. 

A tears slipped from my eyes,as I wiped Maa's photo on the night stand, clutching it to my chest as to feel Maa's warm embrace but what I met was a coldness of glass and a hand on my back. 

" Alpha, Kwannie wanted to ask if he can change bedsheets, it's stinky." He made face, stinking out his tounge and scrunching his nose in eww, standing before me,he looked tall looking down on me and I had urge to stand up,corner him against the wall while he talks. 

"Anyways alpha..do you know Kwannie had wished under the table in the new year while he ate twelve grapes?" He asked, sitting down on floor,near my leg,I didn't move, looking up at me with a curiousity. " No I didn't know. What does Kwannie wished for?" At my question he blushed deep red,he thinks for a moment,made a face which says just say it and began with his Kwannie this and Kwannie that. 

" Of course Kwannie wished for a home, husband and lots of baby." He said, bringing his hands back to show how many kids he wished for or how big home he wants. I smiled at him, feeling urge to say something to see how much red his face can go but I kept myself in check. As I take his chin between my thumb and index finger. " Aren't you too young to dream of babies?" I said instead, knitting my brows together,his plump lips wobbled with nervousness and my eyes lingered on them for a moment before I looked into his honey brown eyes,his hair is brown too,as his skin looks like he takes bath in honey, except he has scratch wounds all over his hands. 

" Kwannie is one," 

" Kwannie is one years old, that's too too much young," I said in a teasing way,as he winced and stomped his feet, making a fake cry I sound as he said," let me count alpha." He said in his honey voice,I yet again felt an urge to hear my name from his mouth. " Vernon,my name's Vernon." I said as he continued his counting, telling me to wait as if he is solving the mystery of Sooyoung being loved despite of her mean behaviour. 

I laughed waiting for him to tell him his age. I had guess it right the last night because after counting to nineteen he stopped," Kwannie is nineteen, alpha." He said, avoiding to call me by name. 

"Is that young? Kwannie is literally adult for one year." He said, swing back and forth with the help of his knees, securing them with his hands,I smiled at his tantrums, knowing very well,he is either flirting or being for real. I caressed his arms and he hissed," I am sorry..I was just checking. Who did this to you?" I asked, wanting to rip everyone apart who hurted my capybara. 

" No one Seungkwan doesn't like the feel of the skin,so many people had touched it." He said,I took back my hand,he rubbed himself harshly and distract his mind I cleared my throat and his enthusiasm was back,as he told me story of him thinking in childhood that we live in fst boys stomach,or that Alfred is only kingdom,or how he used to think that every alpha is ugly until he saw one alpha. 

"So, Kwannie grew crush on him and told him.. and then Kwannie get beaten up until he became like a goat who just gave birth to do many babies." He laughed, looking at me, maybe the disinterested look in my eyes hurted him but he smiled apologeticly and standing up to go away,I held his hands, wanting not to leave him, not for my comfort but his,he looks lonely at the moment. " Sleep here..if I know you are sleeping here,I won't do anything, promise." I said standing up pushing him down on bed, like a loyal dogs at military he did what I told him. 

Any omega would do that to win the trust of alpha. 

" I will be going in early morning don't worry." I assured him hiding the possessiveness seeped through me,when I around the bed and sleep beside him I felt completed and yet myself.