Between Shadows: The Boy Who Found Heart in a Doctor's Heart.

Chapter fifteen: Unveiled Vulnerabilities

Vernon

The moment I confessed to Seungkwan,my body went numb,he is for me from the start even if I wasn't for him,how come I never see that, finding him at the right moment,he was send by my Maa, to love me,cook for me, to take care of me,while I give him world,a world he deserves and took of running to the Jihoon, to tell him I have fallen in love. 

" Hyung, Jihoon hyung!" I called entering into the porch of room, Seokmin who was playing with his sons stopped,as three of his son's ran to me," uncle Nonie!" Soobin yelled, jumping on me and I balanced myself after catching him. He is talking with me, it's been so long I had held him in my arms, being the doctor and his uncle,I was the first person held him before giving him to Bryn and then my not so strong brother when it comes to giving motivation. 

When Soobin is being born, Seokmin keep fainting in labour room and to wake him up I want to kick him but in labour room I am more doctor then brother, especially with Seokmin I am everything but his brother. 

" How are you man?" I asked,not bringing up how last time he ignored me, that's not my nephew's doing it's all that evil princess,how I hate her more than my brother,my heart goes crazy when she beat Soobin but I couldn't do anything,I am not even his Godfather it's his grandpa,the King,which Princess have get all the bad gene. 

" I am great uncle..here to meet uncle Jihoon,he has gone to Hoonjoong hyung's home..he is in heat. I can help.." he said,as if he knows everything in world, maybe he does,so I told him. Seokmin stole glance at us as he fixed his two youngest clothes, pulling them on his lap and making them laugh. " I am in love with Seungkwan..so I need to court him.. you know." I said,as I put him down, walking up to go search for Wonwoo,he is my junior at medical school,in second year he decided,he is better as house wife then doctor, and his dad thinks marrying him to ever the possessiveness of his things alpha would be better. Chan loves Wonwoo though since the day get married. 

" Chan!" I yelled as I opened the door of Chan's room revealing Wonwoo's on floor on his knees as Chan sat on bed," oh I am sorry..I am sorry." I said as I shut the door seeing as Chan pulled blanket over Wonwoo's naked body. Am I getting punched for this? Maybe,the look in Chan's eyes. 

I waited for a  fifteen minutes as Chan came out with Wonwoo on back,his face has the scowl on as he wrapped his hands on his chest," What?" He asked,his fist twitching,he is angry, should I apologise? No I should not he will be fine. " I want to court Seungkwan."I said,all the shyness of Wonwoo disappeared in the air and he pulled me in a room,and that's how I am with Seungkwan on a date, eating a lasagna with him while he wore Wonwoo's clothes and I wore the one Wonwoo chose from Seokmin's closet,while I got ready Soobin has bunch of questions to ask and all of them were answered by his dad,I saw Seokmin that much happy after a long time. 

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My legs bounced as I stare at him, eating lasagna as he looked at sea waves," so, do I get the permission to court you?" I asked the same question I have asked in Seokmin's royal cart, Seungkwan didn't look up at me as he smiled and nodded,but then his face got serious as he said," but I have to tell you something, only then decide if you want to be with me or not." He said his eyes almost tearing up as he ate his last bite of lasagna, wiping sauce with tissue paper and putting it on table with elegance. I stand up as I took his hand, a music played in the background and the want to dance with my beautiful omega increased as I asked him,"Can we dance together?" I asked,he looked up at me,he is surely feeling emotional because the way a drop left his eyes and even before tear can stain his cheeks,I kissed the corner of his eyes. 

" Kwannie doesn't know how to.." he said, looking down,I held his hands in my hand, shaking my hand around his waist,the way my hand grasp his small waist,the way his head come to my Adam apple only,the way his small hand disappeared into my big hands want me to hide him from the world increased,I want to keep him forever,so no one can make him upset,so only I could here his laugh,see his bright smile,so only I can eat his tasty cupcakes, it's selfish but for him I can do seven sins without feeling guilty,ready for all the punishment God will give me,but right now, Seungkwan is something I want but I want him to love me for me,not because I love, not because I am giving him protection and shelter. 

He can choose anyone and my arms will be open for him forever,he can come to me for protection and shelter if he wants and I will be always here to with his memory,the feeling that he might say no to me terrified me but if I forced him into loving me then I am not greater then those alpha who left scar on Seungkwan's soul, heart and body. 

"Just put your feet on my feet..and we can dance." I picked him up, helping him put his foot on my foot, dancing with as I moved my foots his moved too,his hands on my neck and face red,if I told vegetable saler he is tomatoes they will buy him ,I can't help but chuckle as I kissed his forehead and when beat dropped I twirl him around,and dropped him. 

" Let's go on a walk and you can tell me what you want to say but remember even if you say you are villain in romance novel,I will the fool character who loves villain." I confessed,as he walked with me, breathing rapidly as he stopped laughing and stare at me. 

We walked side by side,his hands in my hands,as he told me that my hand is his emotional support for tonight and I am willing to let it be like that forever. 

" So,as you know.. Kwannie is from brothel... Kwannie.. Kwannie..." He stuttered, looking down as he stopped walking,I looked back when my hand jerked,I looked back his shoulders shaking,as he wrapped his hands around my torso, crying,his face buried in my chest,I hugged him back, wrapping my coat around him along with my hand. 

" You don't have to...tell me Seungkwan,for me love is not something associated with someone's past or future... it's about the present and you are my present Seungkwan... only thing I intend to do with your past wound is heal them,I don't care how you get them. You are more important than the story and those people but if you want revenge. I can become psychopath for you." I confessed,my last sentence made him happy as he laughed soundly. 

 He looked up at me,his hands still around my torso,his chin on my middle of my chest as he smiled at me," Kwannie should just tell you.. Kwannie had a baby in a brothel, Kwannie does not know who's the alpha." He laughed against my chest, joking about his sadness I don't like that about him,I didn't said anything about it instead I asked," you want me to take the baby here with you...I can arrange that..fuck Seungkwan..I will die for you,kill for you, raise a child for you, I can let you go anything if that put a smile on your face,I am happy until or unless you are happy." I said embracing him tightly, suffocating him against my chest. 

He shaked his head as he spoke again," No, they killed the baby.. that Kwannie couldn't carry another child to terms, Kwanie wouldn't be able to give you child if you mate with him. You deserves someone better than kwannie, a used, worthless omega." 

I love him not his womb, I am not prince,if I want kid I can adopt it from orphan,we already have Soobin,twins and upcoming babies of my brother,if I want to hang out with kids I will take them with me, I will adopt a omega baby or something, but I can't have another Seungkwan. 

" First of all I love you.." I seperated him from me, touching his belly," not your womb." I said as I took his face in my hand,kissing his forehead as I told him for hundredth time how he is important than anyone. " And you deserves me.. it's me who should be lucky if you said yes to my courting. Kwannie,if I have you around me I don't want anything else,not a baby... until or unless you love me,cook for me and I see you smiling, laughing,yapping I don't care if we don't have baby, intimacy. My love is more to your soul than your body. No offence.. you are the prettiest omega I ever saw." I said, to lighten his mood,with the scar he has my simple sentence can make him overthink everything and jump to the conclusion,I don't blame him. 

My baby doesn't know anything about love and I am willing to be his teacher,his joker,his doctor,his therapist even when he is my nothing. 

" Don't think too much Seungkwan,let me court you and if you think you deserves someone better I will let you choose." I said, changing word go to choose the mere thoughts of seeing Seungkwan with someone else made me want to cry until I my eyes tell me I don't have any tears left but he shouldn't feel obligated to choose me because I love him. 

We walked together side by side again,he was silent for a brief minute until he saw a blue light in ocean, running towards it, dragging me with him on the ocean floor.